i think i just wanna get some stuff off my chest.
this is meant to be happy messing around stuff but im the fucking worst so i guess you get this instead. sorry
i cant seem to stop hurting people. i get really close to people then push them away. ive ruined relationships cuz of this and i guess to the two people this is kinda aimed at you should hate me. i hurt both of you but you both keep trying to patch things up and i dont know why. i wouldnt want anything to do with me.
and im losing friends. i think people are realising im not who i pretend to be. im shy but i talk to make up for it i pretend everythings ok and i give people false hope.
i promised i wouldnt hurt you and i lied. i broke that promise but i had to.
i know it hurts both of you to hear but i cant pretend everythings gonna be fine with us so im putting distance between us. move on. find somebody actually worth your time.
i guess im still just gonna fake smiles and pretend im ok cuz its easier. but yea.
sorry if im off i guess. i might just give it a break on updates for a little while. not long. but enough.
yea. ok. thats it. thanks.
