about me

So...

A lot as changed in the pass year. Like with stuff with K and my other "friends" so if u are still reading this story then I think u kinda care. I mean hopefully you would or you would just be wasting your time.

Ok so first of let's start with freshman year (last year). So last year I was in a dark place I felt like shit and I felt like no one cared about me, I kinda felt like everyone wanted me to die. Or at least they thought they would be better off with out me, or at least that's what I thought. You see I have ADHD which is a mental illness that can lead to others, one of which is depression. Which if you have read the other parts it is pretty obvious that I have it. So any may K was being a shit head last year, and she still is this year. She threw three temper tantrums in one day and we are almost Jr. Anyway back to freshman year.

So because I felt this way I became very sducidal and well, ya again bad place. But I never really got help bc I did not want my dad to worry. You see when my mom died for the longest time I thought it was an accident and that she would never choice to leave me, in 7th grade a found out that she committed suicided. And well that effected me a lot last year, and still this year. And why I did not get help is bc I did not want my family to worry, and also I forgot was it is called. But it is pretty much when you are sducidal but you will not hurt your self, and if u are ever in a situation where you could die and you not hurt yourself u would take the "opportunity". And that is pretty much how I am, and I am too chicken to do anything where I would be put into that situation. So that is pretty much the main thing of freshman year.