Alive For Love

Chapter 1 - The Begining.

*Ashton*
Calm down, Calm down, Calm down - I keep repeating this to myself again and again, without focusing on the road. Everything is going to be fine I hope. 

Oh shit who am I kidding, how is everything going to be fine after what Just happened? Just how? As I start to try and forget what just happened to me a car is coming towards me with full speed. What is the car doing on the wrong side of the road? When the car, with the drunken driver was about to hit me I take a U - turn - to avoid any serious damage. The car is causing so much damage; driving on the wrong side not caring how much damage it might cause if the driver does not slow down. I wish I could be like that, not giving a damn about anything and just live my life the way I want to!

As I am reaching the end of the never ending bridge I see a silhouette of a person on the edge of the bridge, over the silver railings. What makes the situation even worse is that that person is close to jumping off. As I get closer, switching of my headlights of my car, I see the person, which is a girl. Her dark hair camouflaged with the dark sky flying into all the possible directions, her hands are out on the sides. From what it looks like she is trying to balance but also embrace her self for jumping off. I pull over and start speed walking to get to over the railings.(without trying to alarm her so she wouldn't jump) when I get behind her I can Hear her screaming but I can not seem to move anymore, with the shock I am feeling as she is shouting...

*Ashley*
I am fed up.
I am done.
I want to leave this world.
I want to die.
I am screaming, on the edge of the bridge, so the whole world can hear what I am saying. At this moment I really do not give a shit on who hears me because I want the world to hear. This fucked up world.

I can't seem to make out what I am saying but whatever comes to my mind I scream it.
"WHY?" I scream like I am the only one in the world.
"Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? , WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS TO ME WORLD? WHY AM I NOT NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR ANYONE? WHY DOES EVERYBODY HATE ME? WHY? JUST, WHY!?"

By the time I have done saying this, my throat denies to work , my eyes tearful and I still force to scream because it's not like I am going to wake up tomorrow with a sore throat because tonight I will die. I am screaming so loud and I wouldn't be surprised if the whole world could hear me but to be honest I couldn't care less.
"OK I GET IT, YOU WON THE BET, I GIVE UP - I DO NOT CARE; I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE, I JUST CAN'T!" "I WAS BORN TO LOOSE, YOU HEAR ME WORLD. NOW YOU CAN LAUGH AS MUCH AS YOU CAN: I DO NOT GIVE A FUCK"
"GOODBYE WORLD"

Once I have embraced my self, I calm down apologising to the mother who gave me birth to me. But that mother left me in this cruel world so I know I can die in peace without worrying about the family I am going to leave behind.

I mentally prepared my self for this and now I am terrified of jumping off. I can not turn back now. On the count of three I will jump off.

One...Two...Three... before I can even jump, a muscular, pair of hands grab me from my waist and pull me toward the other side of the railings. I spin round to see a pair of grey - green, angry eyes staring down in my dark brown eyes. This boy, or even anyone, can not stop me from dying today. He is saying something but my ears can not make out what he is saying. I am so confused and I did not realise how exhausted I am. How could I be so weak? Why am I not fighting?

He is dragging me to a jet black, shiny car. He carries on speaking, desperately. I watch his mouth move very fast. His hand is on my back now and the other is opening the door of the shiny car. I sit down on the comfortable, rich leather seats. I find it so hard to breath. As the car starts moving everything goes black, no lights, no water no sky just pure darkness...

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Thank you guys so much for trying to reading my story. This story is a story created by me, Sakina. So sorry if there was any mistakes but I am determined to do better :)

There will be a new chapter once a week!

Thank you again and see you on the next chapter!

Byeeeeeeeeee lovelies from sakina. xoxoxo