HOMECHILDREN - THE NEW GENERATION [by a true story]

day six (Part 1) - 04.09.2016: Everything has to go out!

She cries! She is happy! She does not dare to speak. She has often tried. It was often only small things that have accumulated over time to a mountain. She has failed her own feelings to be happier. With every fiber, she believed in all the good things she had hidden. The tears taste salty and run her face! The river of mourning is scarcely diminishing. She tried it, a valet was nice, she listened and she tried to understand what depressed her. But it is only in five days that this person is back in the service. She spares her face at the thought of having no one but her friend who supports her energetically. "The suitcase is no longer closed and no one looks at it," she said as an example in conversation. Now she knows everything she has written. She has made her contempt. But it will not be able to fulfill its purpose. She fights hard for the righteous life that she has experienced the last time before eternity, felt 30 years. She calls for help, but no one can hear her screams! She escapes when she can only in her world of salvation. But also there is never permanently happy, and it will not be. Often she is Jacksully, Olo'Ektan at the Omutikaya, or she is Professor Snap, the wizard, who tries to save Harry, Edward Cullen, a vampire who falls in love with a man. But they all have one thing in common: they were all lucky, and yet they all experienced misery. Jack as the home tree fell, Snap as he died, and Edward when he was separated from Bella. They were a kind of heroes who were always in the background! Jack rescued Pandora, Snap warmed Dumbledor, and Edward protected Bella everywhere. With her it is like this: she experienced happiness (like yesterday) and misfortune (as previous status report) and she is also somewhere deep in the innermost of her soul a hero who remained behind in the background. She still does not know how she is aware of it. She wanted to give up everything she loved. She thought of running away and finding peace but this was just an insane thought which she had to reject. She has to come to terms with her life, but she can not and CAN NOT. She is not a Mary who listens to everything the General says to her ... she is like a deserter. She betrayed her own home to be happier ... she is so much like Jack and then again. Jack left the people who were portrayed as aliens and went to the Omutikaya to fight with them against humans. Against these people who try to exterminate a species. All those who can not deal with Natural Resources. She hates war, and yet she must lead a fierce war in herself. Once she wants to leave and can not and once she has to stay and want to leave. She has no choice. It must subordinate itself to the general or desert. But then she loses her home, which is important to her although she is not doing well and she knows exactly. She is looking for a time out! And if it were a week, maybe she could finally switch off, come down and see everything else or she does the opposite, eats all pain inside herself and destroys her life. She always talks to everything she wants, but she does not see any change. The tears are dried, but the grief is not gone. She wonders if this sorrow will ever leave her and retire. She says, "Yes, I'm fine!" When asked. But she says it just because nobody should know how bad it actually is. She hates compassion. She always tries to establish contact again, but later on she is herself who does not want herself to be bad. She would like to be cool, relaxed and relaxed, not to be noticed. But the barrel runs over ... the boiling water splashes in all directions. She writes it down to handle it, but she is too sad to let it go. The shock sits deep. In the therapist she talks about other things, because they can not do more than listen, but one belongs here too, but it does not change, and that has never been worth the whole trouble and yet it is so escalated. She dare not admit that she is also sad. She regrets it very much and can not change it. She wants to be courageous and help shrine again and again but she whispers it only. Her otherwise so loud voice fails his service! Tomorrow she will see what happens. She hoped for improvement. She wants to be lucky again and talk about the soul. All she is depressing and she hopes that she will finally make it tomorrow and jump over her own shadow. He prevents her from doing what she should have done before eternity.
MfG: YOU