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I'm Sorry I Haven't Been Updating

I haven't updated this book because I just feel so depressed and I want to die. Well,I do all the time,but more over the last few months. I can't stop thinking about Hope and it sucks because it's MY FAULT that we aren't together anymore and I thought I could stop cutting,but I can't cause it feels so good to get a release and feel pain other than emotional pain. I just want her to know I think about her everyday,but she's probably moved on and found someone so much better than me because I'm the worst and it's awful to think about her loving another person,but as long as she's happy,I'm happy even if I'm not the reason why. Why is life so complicated? My friend tried to commit suicide by drinking bleach,but threw up after the first sip and I want to get my pencil sharpener blade and cut 'GET OUT' all over my body cause I just want all the pain and emotion out and gone from my body,leaving me as an emotionless ghost who just lays in bed and cuts some more. I just need it to get out!