seeing you for the first time was like time stopped. i was frozen in your gaze of icy blue, unable to move, unable to speak. i had absolutely no clue what i was getting myself into—the fame, the drama, the pain of stardom. but the important thing was, none of that mattered because i was captivated by you and love would overcome it all. and that's what brings me here today, love. i know jonathan was loved my many of his fans and you all deserve to know what happened and exactly why it happened. for the sake of jonathan, i promise to you the entire truth. the beauty behind our madness. how it all began. how it all ended. the first thing you should know is...
i blame myself.
