Invisible (Niam)

Chapter 1

I walked in to my first class and took my usual seat. Which was all the way in the back and I was exactly 3 seats away from Niall, so I had a pretty good view of him. I sighed and took out my notebook. The class was pretty much empty except for two other kids. Even the teacher wasn't in the room. As always the losers were always in class first. I just had nothing better to do so class was my only option.

Sometimes I wish I had a redo button. If I did, then I'd redo me not speaking to anyone every year. Darn me for being shy. I just can't help that I'm uncomfortable with strangers. After awhile the bell rang and my classmates poured in to the class room. I didn't see Niall though, and that disapointed me. He's basically the only reason why I even liked this class.

Finally, my English teacher, Mr.Hawkins, decided to come in to class. Niall never showed up that day. Niall always showed up. Maybe he's sick? I thought. But I couldn't help but feel worried. It's probably unhealthy that I have so many strong emotions for a kid who doesn't even know I exist.

But that doesn't matter. As long as I know who he is i'm okay . Sure he'll never know who I am, and that I seriously do like him, but I'm okay with watching his every move from a distance.

The day passed by eventless of course. I wondered if Niall would come to school tomorrow. He probably would. I couldn't wait to see Niall. His sexy dyed blonde hair, the way that his blue eyes dazzled as he laughed. How could someone not like him? I decided to push Niall away from my mind for awhile because the last thing I needed was my little friend down there to start acting up.

I think I'd die of embarassment. I walked my usual route home, which seemed to feel longer then usual. I seriously need friends. Maybe if I changed Niall will notice me?

But he'd never be in to me in that way. He's not in to guys. I know this may sound weird but I'd rather be invisable to him then be his friend. If I were his friend I'd get to know him better and like him even more, but if he doesn't know who I am , I can't possibly like him even more right?

Ugh who am I kidding, It's Niall. Of course I'll always like him more, no matter what. I walked in to my house, and dragged myself upstairs in to my room.

Sometimes I think I'm just going through a phase. That maybe I'm not really gay, I just want to experiment. But, I know that's not true. I once had a girlfriend and I tried to avoid her as much as possible.

One day, when I was hiding from her in a local fast food place called Nando's , I spotted him. That was the first day I saw Niall. Love at first sight? Eh, maybe. All I knew was that I had to end things with Amber, my now ex-girlfriend.

So I did, and ever since then I've been watching Niall from a distance, to afraid to actually talk to him. This crush I had was seriously unhealthy. I sound like a stalker. I should get help. For about a hour I just thought. I thought about Niall and how my life would be if I was popular.

It's not fun liking someone who will never like you back, it's even worse when they've never even looked your way.

One thing I know for sure is that Niall Horan will know who I am. Gay or not. He'll finally know who Liam Payne is.

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Short and boring I know. Sorry. It'll get better though.

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