Until I See You Again, Goodbye

     Winter break, too short. The soft snow blanketed the cold earth as it hibernated. It had continually snowed for quite sometime leaving the earth at a sudden stillness. The cold seeping through my heavy winter jacket, oddly relaxed me as it dug into my skin and into my bones. My feet hitting the sidewalk in response gave me a squishy sound as it had recently been salted. All seemed tranquil and I just love the winter.

    The winter has the merriest atmosphere, melting even the coldest hearts like mine. The atmosphere just flows into every soul in every town all throughout the world. The winter's cold, yet it warms everyone's attitude. Although Christmas may be over, everyone still distributes kindness in tons. 

     Turning the corner I finally caught site of the frozen pond, everyone was there. I could see Lydia's silhouette in the distance. I could tell it was her by that abnormal beanie she tend to wear everywhere she went. Closing my eyes I just breathed it all in. It just felt like home and it was peaceful. The cold air tickled my throat as it went down, it all just seemed right. Never have I ever wanted to just get lost in a forest as of right now.

    "Tyler you fag leave your day-dream and join me."  That's when I noticed I was already there. I often got lost in thought and today wasn't an exception. Lost in the labyrinth of dreams was sort of my thing. I didn't have much to look forward now, so I looked to my dreams, or in my case thinking about making out with the hot guy that sits next to me in fourth period. it's better than learning what the teacher has to say. I mean like damn just thinking about it. I look up to see Lydia smiling her gorgeous smile she gave when she saw me.  Her blue eyes glowed brightly like the essence of youth she was. Her beanie was of course still there. I never really got the beanie. With birds everywhere it just stuck out. It probably has a meaning, but I'm just to stupid to get it because I know for sure no one would wear that to wear it.

     "Hey girl how you be?" she smiled pushing the hair out of her face. she threw her glance to the pond and smiled. "Just admiring the beauty of this day. It's just beautiful with a edge to it. You know what I mean?" I got lost at the frozen pond. It was magnificent, just glowing with a naturally beauty. I know I probably say that a lot, but beauty is everywhere you don't have to look for it. Children laughed and smiled as they skated on the ice and the trees stripped bare were iced. It was just like from a painting or movie. Everything just screamed perfection today. I never thought I'd say, but I think I may be living my dreams today.

     "For real! that's what I've been thinking about all this time. so what made you want to bring me here?" I give a wide smile and watch people walk around us.

     "Well I thought that since tomorrow we'd be back in school, today was our last day to hang before hell." it sounded legit. I mean besides hot boys, which were scarce sad to say, school was horrible. Just too much bad blood everywhere. Unnecessary drama and I forgot to mention…All the bullshit! Too much bullshit happened too! I probably sound like every other baby mama teen, but fakes, whores with to much makeup, judgemental apes, and of course rude teachers. Also the fact there wasn't really a supply of other gay boys, but that really doesn't count as bullshit does it? "Oh god, don't remind me. it's just like no." she looks down smiling with a hint of laughter. "Tell me about it."

     We had smalltalk for a bit. Talking about the people we hated and just why we hated school. Couldn't blame us, with hateful people it was hard to enjoy it, besides the fact grades also get stressing. We just then sat in the snow just a little above the pond and just amazed ourselves of the beauty of it all. Snow was beautiful, but it was magnified when it was a dark cloudy day. I wanted to just go into that forest, but taking Lydia along would probably annoy her just a bit.  "Hey Tyler look look look, eye candy." "hm." I turned to look at her and she smiles and points to a boy I've never seen before and he was just so cute. His blond hair was done up in the front. The boy was smiling as he chased after his little brother, who was controlling uncontrollably. "One of them is not like the others, oh my." She smiles as she saw me give a little gape at him. "Oh Tyler did you find the one? your gaping as if you were at a candy store." she begins to laugh brightly as my face flushes. "shush." She laughs even harder "Oh my god it's true. Tyler's in love" she gets off her chest barely, as it was entangled with laughter. I couldn't help but to blush as I looked at him. My heart basically tore apart when I saw his smile. I'd have dreams of him tonight ohonhonhon.

"Girl, you know you'd touch his body too." laughing hysterically. "I would." I smile and look at him, "he got that booty though." she pauses, "he do."

     We spent hours just talking and enjoying ourselves. A couple times the boy would get close enough that I could hear his voice. I practically died at the idea of his voice talking me to sleep. His voice was like music to my ears. A symphony of art. A thief's lullaby, it was perfect in every way. It wasn't a high pitched voice, but like a cool island song. Ha references, I love them. They are perfect. See, I get distracted. Even if it is about this boy. I even got close enough to see his eyes. Like a bed of clovers they were so green. I had gotten lost in his eyes. That was until the fact he noticed my staring. I blushed brightly, and he just smiles and waves. Dead, that's it I'm done with life. This is a dream, goddammit, someone wake me now! oh lord If I had ovaries they'd be exploding.

To make matters worse I waved and said hey back. Dear god. oh lordy he's coming

what if he starts a conversation. The boy smiles and continues coming. "Hello there." His accent thick didn't drown out the sexiness.