Until I See You Again, Goodbye

Small Town, Small School

     "Great day isn't is." He starts a conversation like that. Does he know what's in my head? Was he listening to my conversations? So many questions without enough answers and I'm too scared to find my own answers. I need to find a way to fancy his interests, yet I'm left at square one. When do these multifarious dreams terminate? When will I ever wake up and pursue my demise. Sooner or later it'll happen I figure why not sooner less torment. OK I'm rambling, not sure why I even want to die, but I guess I can't die until I wake up from endless dreaming. "That this wonderful day is. I was just talking to Lydia about."

     I turn my back and use some sort of hand gesture to make him notice Lydia and lessen the attention on me as it disturbed me and greatly made me nervous, which made me more afraid I'd blush. Lydia smiled and waved. Great I figured this would ensure more attention to Lydia than I. "Hello I'm Luke. Nice to meet you, both of you." A blushed a bit when Lydia gestured me to talk instead of her. Slaughter me, chop me up and put me in a McDonalds burger I'm not ready yet. "Nice to see you too. I'm Tyler."

     Luke them barely tilted his head and smiled a warm smile that I swear would melt the snow if he smiled longer. It, for sure, melted my heart. God is give him the keys to my heart if he asked. Though there are only to entrances to get the keys. Either is fine with me.

    His green eyes tempted me to stick a tongue down his throat. They just were magnificent, especially since the sun reflected of the sheet of perfect white snow. I could just loose myself in him. That is if I didn't already, blushes a bit.

     "Bye Lydia. Bye Tyler. I have to go now. Maybe we'll see each other again, it'd be nice." I smile and wave by as he slowly disappears behind the rows of snow covered olden houses. "Lydia! Lydia! Lydia! Did you hear how he said my name? Did you?" The way he said my name. The hint of flirtatiousness with a bit of steady charm. I was falling apart and panicking. It turned me on, but the way he said my name was more like he wanted to lay down and cuddle with me, which I'd gladly spend infinities doing because it's cute and adorable. Need I say more? I actually could. Just his hand around my shoulders and my head resting lazily on his shoulder. Just oh my God.

     "I did Tyler! I did! It sounds like he's crushing." she paused a few seconds, "on you." Let the fireworks of my face begin! "You think so?" Lydia smile her eyes glistening with tease and delight. "Your in love and he just might be in love." I moan in despair. I just want his adorable body. Is it so much to ask for?

    I just want to be that guy that's there when he's crying. The one that's there to help him when he falls. Be the guy that he does that for me. I want to be that guy. Want to be that G.U.Y. Don't know the song? It's Gaga, look it up.

     "I-I I have to go sadly. I'll see you in school girl." She looks down smiling. Lydia slowly gets up and huge me. "Until I see you again, goodbye Tyler." She winks and walks off.

     At this point I didn't think anything of it. How could I when my mind was racing a mile a minute. My brain was a stallion running forever. The more I think of it I was pretty cute, but still not enough for Luke. I wonder why he even came to this small town anyway. Compared to almost the rest of the world it was trash. Mainly the peoples fault, but then again news spreads fast in a small town, so it's only expected that drama does too. Too much drama if you ask me.

     "Ay' mom, I'm home." I head upstairs to my room to change clothes. I get my clothes and hop into the shower to warm up some. The steam somewhat reflected Luke. The steam was what you saw, but what was behind it remained enshrouded in mystery. Didn't matter, I loved him and the steam. The pressure of the blistering hot water hit my chest as I was just standing in the water thinking. I sound like such a whore devoting my time to him, but I'm usually like this. I meet someone and sadly I cling to them. I'm that bird that never leaves the nest. Afraid of what's really out there.