We're broken people.

The funeral

Cameron's Pov:

Today is the funeral of Alex. I'm suppose to give a speech in front of millions of people who came to support Alex.

I was dressed in a black laced dress. It ended mid thigh. This was Alex's favorite dress. He said I looked really beautiful in it.

He wanted for me to play a song at his funeral it was his favorite. It reminded him of finally setting free and going to the beach. The song was Riptide by Vance Joy.

He is such an outgoing person. I don't think I will be able to say the speech. I am going to cry. I can't do this.

"Cameron your driver is here." Susan said knocking on the door. She is my personal helper. She helps me with anything I need. She's like a mother to me.

"Coming." I quickly grabbed my purse and putting my phone in it along with a book.

I quickly went down the stairs and slipped on my black converse. I opened the door to the house and my driver was waiting for me with an umbrella.
Its raining outside. It has been raining nonstop ever since Alex died. I quickly got into the back seat and thanked Jason. He's 22 and is taking college online. I feel bad for him because I feel like I'm wasting his time. That's the driver by the way.

We got onto the rode and he was driving to the funeral. I was just looking out the window with tears rolling down my cheeks.

I miss you Alex. I want to be there with you. I promise I will be there.

Ω*Ω

"Now I introduce you my daughter, Cameron to say a few words." My father said to the people sitting. It was rain we just put a roof made of plastic over our heads. Its like a big giant umbrella.

I quickly got up and started walking up front. Everybody was either looking at me with hatred or pity. Just great what I needed now.

"As you know my name is Cameron and Alex died in a car crash. He was a loving brother, son, and friend. He was a person who took me out of my darkness and he was my ray of sunshine. He would light up my world. I love him so much. He means the world to me. He is now resting where no one can disturb him. He is finally dancing with the angels. I love you little bro. I can feel him in my heart. He is still there. I want you to come back. It's all my fault that you died. I knew I shouldn't have driven that day. I can't do this. I can't. I'm s- s- sorry." I ran into the audience and ran away to the end of the road. Everybody was flashing their cameras at me. I can't do this no more.

I saw a person getting soaked behind a tree. He looked familiar but I chose to ignore it. I quickly ran and kept on running. I came to a bridge. There was a highway under it. I was getting soaked from the water and it reminded me of that day.

I choose to forget. Please Alex take me with you.

I quickly got on the edge of the bridge and I was going to jump. I wish to be with you Alex here I come. I felt someone watching me.

I was about to fall until someone grabbed by the waist and put me on the sidewalk.

"Woah what are you doing?" The random stranger asked. I laid on the floor and brought my knees to my stomach. My vision was blurry and I couldn't see anything.

He ruined my chance of being with my brother. He thinks he saved me but he just brought more pain on me.

I got up and looked at him. I recognize him he was the one in the tree. I step forward and started pounding on his chest.

"WHY DID YOU SAVE ME? WHY DIDN'T YOU LET ME DIE? JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!" I was shaking uncontrollably and I laid down on the ground.

"I'm sorry. I'm no good as I was told. I'm just a worthless piece of trash that does nothing right. I don't know why I was even born." He said with sadness in his voice. Who is he?

"Who are you?" I asked my lips trembling from the cold.

"My name is Devon Hills nice to meet you." He said taking a hand out to pull me up.

I took it and hoisted my self up. I looked at him and noticed how he looked like a person I've seen somewhere else before but I just can't put my finger on it.

"Have I seen you somewhere else other than behind the tree?" I asked filled curiosity.

His breath got caught in his throat. His face paled and his face was filled with sadness.

"Nope nowhere else." He said looking at other things rather than me.

"I just want to say that your not in this alone and how I have to get going." He said about to walk off.

"Hey!" I shouted running after him. He turned around and I gave him a friendly hug. I really needed this right now. I feel like he understands me.

"Well uh I guess I'll see you. Um yeah stay safe. Bye." He walked off and I was lonely again. I started walking back to the funeral. I was just staring at all the cars that passed by. I was soaking wet and really cold.

Ω*Ω

I arrived back to the funeral and I bet I looked like a mess by all the faces that people were giving me. I just gave them a glare. I sat down in my place next to my cousin. I couldn't be with my mom and dad because they didn't want to look at me. I'm a disappointment. I don't deserve anyone. I blame myself for his death. Why him? The speeches were done being said. It was time to lower his casket in nature. A hole.

I went back to the car where Jason was. I opened the door and got in.

"Did you bring the flowers I ordered?" I asked closing the door. It was so warm in here.

He looked up at me and his face held shock.

"What happened to you? Are you okay?" He asked looking worried and getting my flowers.

"Yeah I'm fine." He didn't look to sure of what I said. He handed me the flowers and I thanked him.

I was about to get out of the car until he grabbed me by the arm.

"Listen Cameron I know your not fine but just know that I'm here whenever you need me." He said and he pulled me into a hug. I hugged him back and I thanked him.

I got out of the car and I started walking back to the casket. Before it was filled with dirt I threw my flowers in. They were so beautiful. The color black. They stood out and I liked that.

They filled his casket with dirt. Well I guess this is goodbye. Rest in peace little buddy.

"Goodbye Alex. I won't forget you. I love you." I murmured. I quickly walked off and people were walking back to their cars.

Jason opened the door of the SUV and I got in. It's time to face the cruel world one more time.

I love you Alex. I will look at the stars every night and see you there, twinkling. Bye.