Once Natsume and I entered his room, he asked "are you ok?" oh yea, I used to get slapped like this all the time, like I'd tell him "Yea, I'm fine, thanks." I reply after a small pause. "You know I'm not a small helpless lost puppy." I say. "Yea, but you seem like a lost girl with the eyes of a doll." he replies to my comment. I don't reply, because he's right, sort of. I just walk into my room a as soon a my head hits the pillow, I'm out like a light.
*Dream*
in front of me is a mirror, there's a girl in it, she looks like me. I look at her face and notice her lips are smiling, but it's not real or fake, it's like a mask. I notice the girls face, no, mask starts to crack and chip. I look at her eyes. They seem so sad and lonely, filled with nothing but pain, and emptiness. yet to anyone else they'd seem blank like a dolls. no one else will see her pain, they can't. even I don't want to see this girl with cracks and chips on her face, I don't want to see the emptiness or pain those eyes were filled with, I don't want to see this girl who reminds me of myself. the mirror cracks, blood starts to seep through, they form into a word, but I'm waking up. just before I wake up I see the word that will haunt me for the rest of my life written in blood. Broken.
*End of Dream*
I wake up with tears on my cheeks and they keep streaming down, I hold in a sob. I go to the washroom and clean myself up and put on my blank face, I can't let anyone see me vulnerable. So I walk in class and sit down, skipping yet another meal, I don't feel anything. I've gone 2 weeks on a piece of bread and cup of water, that I got 2 days a week at lunch, in a basement as punishment before so this is nothing. everyone starts to pile in, filling their seats. Tsubasa, my big brother, comes in with a girl with pink hair, he then comes and sits down beside me. I see Mikan try to sit on Natsumes lap, but he pushes her off and burns her, she pouts and sits on Rukas' lap. I inwardly shake my head, I stand up a place myself on Natsumes' lap and inwardly laugh at Mikan getting frustrated, on the outside my face and eyes are blank. He looked at me worriedly, I wonder why. "What's wrong Natsume?" I ask softly. "You look sad, and lonely." "Oh, don't worry about me, I'm fine, not quite happy but alright." I smile softly up at him. "Hey, can you stop following Natsume like a lost puppy?" Mikan asks, I just stare at her, me? following Natsume like a lost puppy? what about her? I silently wonder, but stay silent sitting on Natsumes lap like how you would sit a doll. he looks at me wondering why I don't reply. but I just look up at the front, ignoring her. "Oi, Lost puppy! I'm talking to you!" Mikan yells. I keep looking up at the front, occasionally blinking. "What? got nothing to bark at me? did you annoy Natsume so much he took you to the vet to remove your voice box?" "Shut up" I look over my shoulder at Natsume, he's upset, no pissed would be the better word for it. Mikan looks at Natsume shocked, "What?" she asks. "I said for you to Shut Up, or are you deaf?" "W-why? why are you standing up for her? protecting her? huh?" she asks. standing up for? protecting? is that what he's doing? but he's upsetting the others, who are more important, because of me. "Natsume," I speak to get his attention, "It's alright, I'm fine. there is no need to continue to upset others for me." I say and start to stand up, but suddenly I'm trapped by a pair of arms that wrapped around my torso and kept me on his lap. I look over my shoulder to see a....blushing Natsume?! "Stay" is all he says, all I can do is nod. Natsume wants me, to stay.
*Time Skip*
It's time to go to our groups, I'm in the dangerous ability class but Mikan dragged me to the special ability saying she want to test my alices. she literally grabbed me (with the help of my bother) and dragged me to the special ability class. I see a whole bunch of people with different alices. "Ok, lost puppy show us your powers on those practise dolls." Mikan demands, "I'd be more willing if it was on a living person, more specifically you." I smirk, she glares "just show us already" "fine, fine." I wave my hand and the dummy is lit of fire, then I doused it with water and the fire went out, then I used my wind to move it, then I threw earth at it like dirt and rocks, "That's all I can do with the dummy because I have nullification and death alices as well." Mikan looked at me scared now because she knows that my nullification cancels hers out, so I can hurt her. "May I leave now?" I ask, bored. she shakily nods her head. I walk to my room and lie on my bed, and eventually drift off.
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To Warm A Dangerous Dolls Heart (Natsume X OC, Gakuen Alice)
De TodoDevilyna has been used as a doll, and has so many problems that no one will help her with, she is seen as a mean person but she isn't most of the time, when she finally sees her older brother after about 8 years, and he ends up not remembering her...
