Just a sprinkle of imagination

Heart-Broken

You think, that you'll die without him
You know, that's a lie that you tell yourself
You fear, that you lay alone forever now
It ain't true, ain't true, ain't true, no

Crying in the club Camila Cabello

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Suffering from a heart-break is not a nice feeling. To be honest it feels like someone is purposely trampling on your heart and just laughing about it.

Yeah that is how it felt and no paracetamol could help the feeling that I was feeling. I just broke up with my long term boyfriend who i gave all my heart to. I gave all of me, my heart my sweat, my blood for this relationship to work. all i keep asking myself is why did you leave me for her.
I cry myself to sleep every night replaying that sickening event in my head.

I have multiple questions all leading to one main one. why, why what did she have that i didn't, what did she do that i couldn't do because i swear if you tell me why and what i would've done it straight away that's how much i cared about our relationship baby that's how much i cared .
that's how much i cared my sweet little sugar plum i loved you cared for you came to you and rescued you on the worst days.

You were my first for everything. i was there when no one was there . I believed you were there for me when i needed you. i thought you listened to me when i needed you to listen .

Whenever you touched me i felt fireworks exploding did you feel that as well or did you lie about that. When you told me you loved me did you mean it.

When you said i was beautiful did you mean it or did you lie about that as well.

I should of realized a long time ago that you did not love me at all. All those nights you came home late.

when you told me that you hated me when you were drunk i should of known you didn't because every one knows a drunk mans words means his sober thought. that night when you slapped me across the face i should of know that you did not care about me but i still stayed because i was sickly in love with you.

that night when you were dancing and kissing that girl i should of know that you did not love neither care about me ever but i still stayed because you loved me.

I used to feel butterflies in my stomach when you called me your little amber but was that a lie as well was she your little amber you can tell me because i will be happy for you.

just to clarify one thing i did not break up with you, you did. you came home late with that girl by your side smirking saying to me that you never loved me and you loved her your little amber. you broke up with me at that second.

you broke my heart but just remember i am happy for you and i will never get revenge on you because you will always be my first boyfriend my first kiss my first everything and you will always be my first even though you never loved me back.

Do you still remember the day we first met. when you accidentally pushed me to the ground because you were rushing to class but paused and went back to help me up.

You totally forgot about class and skived it with me for a way to apologize for what you did to me earlier even though i said it as nothing you insisted. that was the day we exchanged our names and number.

Ever since that day we were inseparable we became best friends and super close. i sill remember the day you asked me out on our first date. That day was the best day of my life a day i would never forget.

Two years from that day you broke up with me you broke up with me on our two year anniversary. i had a special night planned out for us until you ruined that night by bringing that girl home and calling her our little amber and not me.

It does not matter anymore because i am over that i understand you have founded yourself a girl you love even though you already had a i was you previous little amber who gave you all my heart and dedication to or long term relationship that did not mean anything to you apparently.

Just remember my little sugar plum you were my first everything and i will never forget that.

Yes i am over our break up but still not completely over i know you will never come back to me so that's why i am happy for you but still upset.

This is my first time ever writing a wattpad book and it my be a little cringy but i guess i tried so don't judge me because i am still very new to this. Thanks for reading this the next update will be soon