blue | bts-pjm

二十二

dear park jimin,

i just want to say thank you. thank you for everything you've done for me. thank you for always being there for me when i was down. thank you for making me feel like i was myself for a few weeks. thank you for dealing with my depression. thank you so, so, so much.

by the time you're reading this, you've probably already heard that i've commuted suicide and am dead by now. please don't blame yourself for my death because it has nothing to do with you.

the first time we met, i told you that i wanted to die in the ocean because it was blue and blue was my favourite colour, yes? i'm glad i also met someone who had something in common with me, even if it was just the colour blue. thank you for approaching me, because if you didn't? i probably would've died the day you were supposed to come up to me.

there was something about you, that just made me realize that i shouldn't end my life yet because there are so many things in life that i haven't experienced yet. for example, love. i never felt the love that one's parents would give to them, or the love when your boyfriend gives you those little kisses on your forehead, or even the love that feel when reading a book. thank you for showing me that there is something that i can live for, and that is the love i received from you.

you truly are, an amazing person. never forget that. and i want you to forget that i ever existed because you obviously deserve someone better than me and someone who accepts your love and returns it back to you. find another girl, better than me, and forget about me.

just please don't forget that i really did love you, jimin. even though i didn't show it through my actions. i still love you, and will be watching you over heaven.

i love you so, so, so much, and thank you, park jimin.

sincerely,
song taehee ♡.

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