Shattered - Lashton

Chapter One

Luke sat on the edge of his bed in his and Ashton’s room in the boys of 5 Seconds of Summer’s shared flat. He had tears running down his face flowing freely from his icy blue eye they were soft yet hard, soft because he was sad and hard because he angry. He had blood streaming from small cuts on wrists and forearms. His tears mixed with the blood as they feel from his face. Why was Luke like this right now because he was sad, sad from reading all those hateful tweets, sad from knowing the fact the one he loves so dearly will never love him back, sad from knowing his bestfriend and band mate Ashton was so close yet so  far away, but then again he was angry, angry for being so worthless, angry for not being good enough for the band, and most of all he was angry for not being good enough for Ashton.

Some people may think Luke is joyful boy from Australia who has gotten the chance to make it big but in reality Luke is a depressed young lad from Australia with a broken smile and scar covered skin who has gotten the chance to make it big. Luke knows he has gotten a great chance some people could only wish for but he knows he’s nothing special he just got a lucky break.

You may be wondering what made Luke like this and well the answer is pretty simple, ever since the age of 7 Luke has been bullied. People used to tell him to just buck it up kids are mean. Luke knew this and when he tried to kill himself when he was 14 he wrote a letter saying:
I know kids are mean trust me I know.
He hung himself but it had not worked and his mother, Liz, had found him just hanging there tears going down his face. Luke had been put into therapy until a year ago once everyone thought he was better he began to cut again but him and his friends always wore bracelets no one would think anything of it.

Luke was bother glad but upset nobody noticed.  He was glad cause he didn’t want to go back to therapy or be on watch 24/7, but then was upset that nobody cared about him enough to at least check everyonce in awhile. Luke over all knew he shouldn’t be doing it but he felt like he had to. He hated feeling like he had to destroy himself. Although Luke somehow felt like he was more beautiful with the markings only he could see. He also felt more beautiful when he was skinny. He had been getting a lot of hate about being fat, so Luke began to starve himself and when he did eat he purged. Nobody seemed to notice so he thought why not.

Luke put his razor away, cleaned his new wounds and slipped his bracelets back on. He washed his face and made himself presentable. He put his big fake smile on and walked out the door and went into the living room where the rest of the boys were. “Hey guys.” Luke said. “Luke I need to talk to you, now.” Ashton had said earning strange looks from the other 3 boys. “Okay.” Luke said. Ashton had gotten up and started walking, Luke followed.

They were in Ashton and Luke’s room. Ashton had shut the door behind Luke the sat on his bed patting a spot for Luke to sit down. “Give me your wrist.” Ashton said. Luke did gulpping knowingly. Ashton began to take off Luke’s bracelets. “Ashton please don’t do this.” Luke cried one tear escaping his eye. Ashton took off the last bracelet and flipped Luke’s wrists over. Ashton now had tears in his green eyes threatening to spill any minute. “Luke these are new, is this what you were doing in here a few minutes ago? The only reason I had checked is beacause I thought I saw one the other day. I had really hoped I was wrong. Why Luke please tell me maybe I can help.” Ashton says in a hard yet soft voice, kinda like you would describe Luke’s eyes, a few tears escaping. “A-Ashton I’m sorry it’s  just the fans an-” Luke begins Ashton then cuts him off “The fans Luke is that why you’ve been starving yourself, I bet you thought I didn’t notice but when your best friend loses 10 pounds in 1 months you’ll notice. Luke you need to listen to me you are perfect, you are my bestfriend if people insult you and make you do this they’re not fans, they’re attention seekers who do it to feel better about themselves. Luke me, the boys, your family, and friends we all love you. So please promise me you’ll stop marking up you beautiful skin and start eatting.” Ashton says almost in a full sob. Luke isn’t much better off. “I’ll try.” Luke says looking into Ashton’s eyes. “That’s a start.” Ashton says wipping a tear away. Ashton kisses all of Luke’s scars and new cuts then put his bracelets back on. Luke smiles. Only if Ashton knew. Ashton stands up and says “Let’s go mate I won’t Calum and Michael I promise, now come on.” he slings his arm around Luke and they walk out to rejoin the other two. Luke just think about what Ashton said, Let’s go mate. Oh how Luke wishes he was more than just Ashton’s mate.

(A/N: My and @Princess-Of-Love are co-writting this I will be writting from third person's point of view wich I will focus on Luke and Ashley will be writting at first person's point of view that first person being Ashton. That's about it. ~Lilacxxx)