My Life (BajanCanadian Fanfiction)

Chapter 5

👱🏻‍♀️M A D E L I N E ' S   P O V 👱🏻‍♀️

My parents told me to sleep with them, I don't know why. I crawled under the covers, knowing that I couldn't sleep. I headed downstairs seeing only darkness but a bit of light from the pool. I opened the door and slightly saw the pool filter turn on, I felt the cold, and warm, slushy water. I took off my slippers, dipped my foot in, and soon let my whole body sink in with me. This wasn't death or, sadness or, depression. This was just me.

The pool feels like I was in an ocean, discovering what it feels like to be in the world. The darkness of the pool, having a scent of light made me feel like I was in the ocean. I lifted myself up feeling empty still, what is this feeling? I'm only 6.. Too young for depression. I swam to the corner feeling trapped and angry. Tears suddenly came rolling down, why is that?

I heard sparkles from above me, they were pink and beautiful. It kinda gave me the sunset filling color to my brain. I reached up for it, with the tip of my finger it had came down. It landed in the water forming a human. There came a female ghost, with sparkles and tears.

"Hi" I said whispering to it. She said nothing, she looked at me like I was stupid. She touched my cheeks but did not feel them, and I did not feel her.

"You're with them now?" She said. I looked at her with a puzzled face into what she was talking about.

"I guess?" I said back. She nodded and sunk under water with disappearance. I looked underwater seeing nothing left. It's like she was sinking into her own tears. I got out and changed into my outfit seeing the sunrise. I sat down not even eating the cereal that I set out.

"So you're not cooking this morning" said a voice next to me. It was my dad.

"No, it seems like you don't want me to so" I said sadly.

"If you want to cook, then go ahead. I'm not here to judge"

I then smiled with a bright idea. I pulled my dad to the music speaker, pointing to the music. He smirked at me and played some music from his phone. We got out the material and started dancing while we cook. After a while of messing around, we heard my mom come down with the baby laughing like we were busted. She put the baby down in his seat, still smiling.

"I think you two got some cleaning to do" Mom said chuckling. Me and Dad were filled with pancake batter and flower. Dad showered first then mom gave me a bath after him. I was in a tub feeling as the water was like the pool once more, where I feel like I sink and die. It's hard to think by being in water. My mom came in with L'oreal, Strawberry Soap, she wet her hands in the warm water so I assumed, and poured some onto her hands.

"Daddy told me that.. You felt like you don't wanna cook in the house anymore" She said while rubbing my batter hair.

"Something like that" I replied back.

"We never said you could never cook, we loved your food.. And we could you a Culinary Master around the house"

I looked up with a smile, practically blushing. She grabbed the shower head and brought it down to rinse my body and my hair from all the batter. After the shower, I grabbed the towel and dried myself off getting a new set of clothes. I heard a knock on the door, seeing my dad once again.

"You wanna come with me to visit my work?" He asked. I nodded and brought all my things with me in which I mean some art stuff, not a lot but, some to keep me busy.

My dad's office was quite nice for a youtuber with 5 million subs so I heard. There were 2 men at desk, I walked over to one who was making art, I giggled on how silly it looked. He turned around with a smile.

"Hi, you must be the new kid..Hi I'm Kyle" He said throwing his arm out to shake hands.

"I'm Madeline" I said shaking his hand, he nodded understanding the name.

"Can I call you Maddi?" He asked, I nodded taking his statement in well terms.

I walked around more into the office seeing Dad work in one office and mom in another. I went around the whole place, it was huge. I walked up some interesting stairs, sighting darkness but, at the end was light. I shut the door and walked up to it seeing only trash and small little window. I grabbed my notebook and wrote something in it by this small little spot.

I feel small like an ant
I feel sad like rain.
I cry because, I am sad.
I feel alone because, darkness takes over.
I feel empty like my soul has taken over.
All these emotions are strong but, no one cares. I might as well die before anything else happens.

I shut my notebook and, laid my back on the small window peek. It feels so peaceful here it's like I wasn't even real. I heard my name being called I ran out and down the hall I went leaving my happiness.

"MADELINE THERE YOU ARE WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN" My mother said in a panic tone.

"Exploring" I said back, She took my hand and we walked back to her office, it was so nice and organized.

"I want you to stay here with me, and if you need to use the restroom, tell me okay?" She said, I nodded my head and, sat my butt down next to the baby as he played with his toys. I started writing again but something different.

My love for a family is barely there.
My family's love is not even there for me.
Why am I feeling like they won't love me, so why even try.

I shut it again and grabbed my coloring supplies and started drawing a flower. It was all detailed and beautiful like I thought myself being like it. I looked up seeing my mother peeking over my shoulder,I giggled at her.

"You didn't take my phone and copy it right?" My mom said giggling, I shook my head as a response. She left the room a second, taking my picture? After she came back Kyle was with her. He sat next to me, was I in trouble?

"So..I saw this picture that you have made here and I wanna ask you if you actually did copy it" Kyle said being amused. I had took my paper back, I started another flower but it was very light like a small sketch.

"Wow, you're extremely talented" Kyle said smiling. I laid my head under his chest as a hug, I guess we were now best friends.