I know those of you are big fans of this story and I'm sorry to say that it no longer can be exactly that.
I've lost the inspiration for this story.
Blayke.
He was a real person and everything in this story was real.
My feelings were real, too.
But when I have feelings for something that strong, I tend to lose them because of who I truly am.
I'm a terrible lover, love is nothing I've ever been good at.
I like to think once upon a time I was good at loving him but I really never was.
He was meant to be everything he's becoming and I was meant to watch him become that from the sidelines.
When you look at someone like Blayke, you truly see them for who they are. Beautiful, flawed, stronger then most would suspect, and truly loyal until the end.
I had that beautiful person. He was mine once.
I once was the person he waited six months to be with.
But now I'm the person that he wants to forget and leave behind.
Because I deserve it.
I was selfish. Expecting so much from him and not allowing him to expect more from me.
I will forever regret ever losing my Beast.
The last petal has fallen for us.
I'm stuck with this curse forever.
Love,
Jace.
