Wanderlust And Found

WHAT MATTERS THE MOST

So, it's the last day in Paris and in the evening we are supposed to leave for Amsterdam, a five hour road trip. We went to the Luxembourg Gardens and walked around for some time. I thought I should ask sorry for what I asked yesterday "Justin, I hope you didn't feel bad because of what I asked?" He smiled, "No it's ok." His smile was weak. It wasn't like before. But then I thought he would get better as the day passed. I tried to distract him but it didn't work that well.

At lunch, he spoke up "Ann is really cute, isn't she?" I coughed "Yeah. Yeah, she is. Why?"

"No, just asked. Calling her today?"

"Yeah, ok. I'll call her"

While we were leaving for Amsterdam, I skyped her, "Hey Ann!"

"Hey Chloe! Sorry, yesterday I didn't speak to you and I spoke to Justin more. I'm really so sorry. So today don't show me his face. How is Paris?"

"Paris is good. We are leaving in some time to Amsterdam. Actually, Justin wanted to talk to you."

"Why?"

"I don't know. Maybe he likes you? Actually he was a little upset from yesterday"

"Why?"

"I can't answer all your whys now. I'll give the phone to him"
"oh ok. Oh my god, I'll be so happy if he likes me"

"Don't even make the mistake of asking that now. "

"Ok. Give it to him."

I called Justin and gave the phone to him. They spoke for twenty minutes and they exchanged numbers I guess. I was happy. It will be nice if my friends get along well.

After all the talking, we started for Amsterdam. Justin drove the car.

For half an hour he played music and after that he reduced the volume "Chloe, what scares you the most?"

I didn't look at him while answering "Fire and water"

"That's strange"

"Maybe for you. Not for me. What are your fears?"

"Losing someone I love"

"Hmm"

We were having a conversation after a long time. By long time I mean a few hours.

He was asking a question which I always find tough to answer "what matters the most to you?"

But I answered without thinking "my family".

"So today, tell me about your family".

"Dad and mom live in Singapore and I shifted to San Francisco with Ann four years ago because our parents didn't understand our careers. She is my family now. I had a brother"

"What do you mean had?"

"He died a year ago. I adore my cousins I don't know why. They are like the most important people for me. My cousin brothers. But it makes me feel bad because I don't know if I'm important to them."

"Why?"

He is just like Ann. Too many questions.

"I speak to them rarely like once in a year. But they matter the most to me. In a strange way. And I like that."

"Actually, as long as someone is important to you, it doesn't matter if we are important for them. We just naturally feel the warmth when we are around them. I hope I made sense sis."

"Kind of."

After that his music started playing loudly again and he was humming to the songs.

You are important to me Justin, because you are my best friend. I feel the warmth. I hope you do.