Imagines| s.m

36- breaks up list

Break Up list

"we're done y/n, i'm sorry." and with that he walked out the door. never to come back in. i was in shock, i couldn't breathe, i didn't know what to do but cry. what happened? how did it happen?

i walked up to the bedroom that was once shared and organized, now just a lonely mess. i grabbed a pen and a piece of paper then walked down to the dining room.

to do list (after the breakup):

1. take refuge in your bed.
2. cry. till the tears stop (this will take a few days).
3. don't listen to slow songs.
4. delete his number from my phone even though it is memorized on my fingertips.
5. don't look at old photos.
6. find the closest ice cream shop and treat myself to two scoops of mint chocolate chip. the mint will calm my heart. i deserve the chocolate.
7. buy new bed sheets.
8. collect all the gifts, t-shirts, and everything with his smell on it and drop it off at a donation center.
9. plan a trip.
10. perfect the art of smiling and nodding when someone brings his name up in conversations.
11. start a new project.
12. whatever i do. do not call.
13. do not beg for what does not want to stay.
14. stop crying at some point.
15. allow myself to feel foolish for believing i could've built the rest of my life in someone else's stomach.
16. breathe.

this was a page in the book Milk and Honey by Rupi Kaur.