Imagines| s.m

38- anxiety

Anxiety

it was three in the morning and i was still awake. i had no idea what was keeping me up.

maybe the fact that shawn's not with me because he's at his at his apartment.

or the damn voices in my head saying he will leave me one day.

i started to tear up, they started rushing down my cheeks making my eyes red and puffy, making my cheeks more red and nose as well.

my head started to pound and it felt like i couldn't move. i grabbed my phone by me, barely being able to move my thumbs to call the person i needed most right now.

"hello?" shawn's voice was raspy and now that i knew i woke him up i felt bad. more tears rushing to get out of my eyes and down my face.

"sh-shawn. c-can you ple-please come o-over. i-i need y-you," i stuttered, it's now hard to breathe right,"please." i croak out at the end.

"y/n, what's wrong? y-you know what, never mind that. i'll be over in a couple. hang in there darling." i heard him, now more awake, say as he rushes out of his house.

the call ended. i reached over and grabbed the blanket he always leaves here and cuddle into it waiting.

shawn's pov

i knew exactly what was happening. just two words.

anxiety attack

she always gets them when she's nervous but there's nothing to be nervous to be worried about right now.

i'm at her door about five minuets later. i get the key she gave me awhile back and unlock the door. i walk quickly to her room and open the door.

there i see my baby cuddling my blanket i leave here with red eyes and tears down her face.

i walk over to her and sit on the edge of her bed. i move back a little so i was right next to her. i wrapped my arms around her shoulders and she put her face in my neck trying to calm her breathing. i started to rub her back and whisper sweet nothings into her ear, leaving random kisses on her temple and in her hair.

"are you okay now, love?" i asked y/n but no reply. suddenly she cuddles into me more. i knew she wanted to sleep so i kicked off my shoes and pulled my legs and feet up onto the bed. i wrapped my arm around y/n's waist and removed the blanket from her arms so i could pull her closer.

"i love you." and i kissed her forehead and went to sleep.

i had an anxiety attack the other night and i have no idea why but i honestly just wanted to hug and cuddle someone but that rly wasn't an option for me so i cuddled my shawn mendes merch blanket... not sorry about it