tw// mentions of degradation, self-consciousness and gore
after making my diary snack i went to the living room where my mom was watching tv and she stared at me and said "your tummy is getting bigger". i didn't give to it too much attention and only said "I don't pass from 70 kg" and she went wide-eyed and said "What?" and i said "i'm at 66kg, i only gained 3kg" and then she looked at me with a stare that shown that she was disgusted and said "do whatever you want, not my problem" and now i'm so sad coz i'm so stressed over the final tests and i can't stop eating whenever i'm bored or can't pay attention i start eating and i eat like crazy and i'm so disgusted over myself too it's the first time my mom look at me that way and now i just want to cut off my tummy it's just horrible like everything else on my body.
