The Impossibly Stubborn Luna

Chapter 11

***** means there is something triggering

katias pov)

why did i call him master?? well because he was getting all kinky like little one? spanking me i just thought it would make him sexually frustrated and boy was i right it was actually hilarious.

when he commanded me to come to him though i have to admit it was very attractive. i feeel a pull towards him its something i cant explain though i know i cant get close he is a fucking werewolf!!

" make me." i say sassily poping out my hip and then placing my hand on my hip.

"i would love to but i dont think your ready for me just yet little one." he says while laughing

that just makes me frustrated, so i did the opposite of what i should have done and strutted right up to him swaying my hips seductivley.

i push him down onto the window seat using one finger, never breaking eye contact. when he is seated i hop onto his lap and wrap my arms around his neck. he lets out a growl of approval.

i lean into his lips and when he goes for the kiss i instead go for his neck and lick a trail up the column of his neck and nip the sensitve part right underneath his ear then i lean in and whisper into his ear,

" i am not this innocent little girl you think me to be . oh and you should probably take care of this lil guy." i finish gesturing to the tent in his pants.

he growls out this time angrily and grabs me by the back of my neck ot hard enough to hurt me just hard enough to show dominance.

" well well kittty got claws, but that little show was nothing i can have you begging for me just from one touch." liam growls out

"you talk alot but never follow through with your words, does the big bad wolfie have any balls?" i say using a baby voice.mocking him

liams eyes darken,

" oh i have balls thats for sure, and i do plan to follow through but i will not do so until i know you are ready." he replies

without thinking i grab the hem of his shirt and pull it upover his head, my mind is filled with nothing but a mindless need. a need to be closer.

i dont know what has gotten into me but i approve his touch is addictive it sends electricity through my veins. waking me up making me feel alive for the first time in a long time.

" kitten you are walking a very thin line i may not be able to stop." he says huskily

"why should you stop?" i say back

"oh fuck it." he says

he rips my shirt off, no he doesnt take it off quickly he literllay rips it downs the centre. i am to lost in a lustfilled haze to even care.

he takes awhile gazing at my body desire shining through his bright blue orbs.

"you are the most beutiful creature i have ever layed my eyes upon." he says and leans in to kiss me.

softly at first then harder, desperate his toungue grazes over my lip asking for entrance but instead i deny it knowinh it will frustrate him.

he graabs my ass hoping it will distract me enough but somehow i keep my focus letting out a light giggle at his frustration.

he replies with a possesive growl.he rips off my pants and at my surprise he manages to slip his toungue into my mouth. it was like heavon, a sweet sweet drug that i found myself craving more and more of.

" i need you." i let on as a breathy moan.

liam rips away from me his face filled with need as he takes in my barely clothed body, he then clenches his fists in anger. at first i am geniunly confused. but then i follow his gaze to my hips.

i let out a whimper and scramble out of his hold. i grab a shirt and flee right out the door. he dosnt follow me and i think this hurts me even more but should i really expect him to care? no they never do only pity never concern.

i hop into a random car and notice an older man sitting in the drivers seat.

"please please drive me home i will do anything."i say desperatly

the old man looks down at me sadly noticing i am barely even dressed. sadness? thats weird i expected something more like disgust or a glare but not sadnesss.

" yes yes of course where to?" he says in a soothing voice

he reminds me of my grampy oh how i miss him.

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I enter the house in a rush, fleeing up to my bedroom my only safe haven.

My dad is passed out on the couch. Thank god I really can't deal with him right now.

I can't believe I didn't even think about the scars. Stupid. Stupid pathetic katia.

He looked so angry and disgusted. I have never felt so much pain.

I felt everything when he looked at me after seeing my scar filled hips,

I felt everything I have ever felt in my entire life,

Heartache,
Disappointment,
Guilt,
Sadness,

I felt everything full force.
A perfect storm tearing through my life ripping away any sense of normalcy.

And then now I feel nothing,
Absolutely fucking nothing.

I don't feel the tears trailing down my tan skin
Even though I know they are there because I can taste the harsh saltiness seeping pass my swollen lips.

I don't feel the sadness anymore only the emptiness.

I need to feel
I just have to feel something.
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Anything is better than the nothing.

I run to the bathroom tearing through the drawers looking for it.

The thing that will make me feel whole again.

The thing that will make me feel.

My razor blade.

I begin to shake with need, though I am careful not to drop the blessed blade.

My salvation in this land of emptiness.

My key to feeling.

I crawl into the tub stripping down to my innocent white bra and underwear.

I need to see the blood to feel the pain that I know I should feel.

I drag the blade against my tan skin.

One

Two

Three cuts

I am disgusting, he was disgusted with me.

Four

Five

Six cuts

He doesn't know why no one does... anymore.

Seven

Eight

Nine cuts

I think I have gone to deep

Ten

Eleven

Twelve cuts.

My vision is know blurry I can't tell if it's tears or bloodloss

As I drift to unconsciosns I think to my self no one will find me no one cares I will only be known as that depressed girl...........

Yeah so this happened....... it took me a hella long time to write because it was a really hard chapter.

Depression is such a hard topic and just writing this made me question my mental space.

I told y'all this would be getting deeper and darker but it will get better............ eventually

Who thinks Liam will save her???