How I lost you

PART 4

I was hurt deep.

I knew it since the moment he was taken.

I was lost.

But I was too stupid to know it.

I kept thinking he would show up at my door.

Days passed.

Weeks passed.

Months passed.

I was giving up all hope.

Not knowing what to do with myself anymore.

I felt..

Uselessness

Deppresed

Horrified.

I didn't know what to do at that point.. everything was going wrong. i had no way to express it at all.. I was never happy and I couldn't live another day.. but yet I did live... but i ruined everything.