Oceans

Missing You

I sit on my bed, a bottle in hand

I cry as the radio plays your favorite band

The song goes "My love, you're gone and its been far too long"

And I think to myself 'I wish you were here, I miss you. Is that so wrong?'

This is because your memory still haunts me

And your photo is the only thing I have left of you to see

I bring the bottle to my lips and finish my drink

The numbing power helping me not to think

In my hand, I hold your ring

Wondering how I ever brought such a hideous thing

Yet you loved it because I gave you it

The memories hurt and I feel like shit

I look out the window wanting to forget the heartache

But I can't let go of this keepsake

I search for the moon but the sky is empty

Staring out, longing for it beauty

I just need something to take away this pain

Barely noticing the rain

I can't stand the memories of my former spouse

The memories that fill this house

I swore I wouldn't return to you

But it is something I need to do

I get up, wiping tears from my face

Going into the hall, I stumble down the staircase

I open the car door and in the wind I hear you say "Go back"

But obedience is something I lack

I get in and start to drive

Rushing to you, I barely feel alive

I drive too fast, images flying by

Careless as to whether or not I die

I reach my destination at last

Trying my best not to remember the past

I stumble my way up the hill

The night air has a thick chill

It rains still, I do not care

I continue, almost there

The moon comes out as I reach the top

And all I can do is stop

I fall to my knees on your grave

And I scream "Why were u the one God didn't save?"