Dear diary,
Finally,
Today is the day,
I've been waiting for,
It is coming,
It had been one year,
And I still like you,
I remember everything nice and clearly,
This time last year,
Was the first time I looked up to see your face,
We were in the school hall for a test,
And you were there sitting in the same line with me,
I could clearly see your face,
Your perfect figure,
I remember,
You were reading a book,
Or just flipping through pages to be specific,
But anyways,
I liked the face you held when you were reading,
I remember how your eyes focused,
And how your eyebrows knitted,
I looked away when I realized I'd been looking at you,
No I'd been examining you,
Less than 5 seconds later,
I found myself looking at you again,
I couldn't get my eyes off from you,
So the whole day I was struggling with my mixed feelings,
I didn't want to like you,
I resisted to like you,
I thought you were the same douche bag,
But you'd changed for the better,
The next day,
I hated myself for liking you,
But eventually I was defeated,
My feelings won,
And I was officially had a crush on you,
Until now I still have a crush on you,
Hell sometimes I don't think this is just a crush,
I couldn't forget the swing of your step,
You are the definition of perfect,
Everyday I count how many times you smiled,
How many eye contacts we made,
I memorized every moment we had,
I reminisced everything and I'll be fine as heck,
I can't believe I liked you,
I'm more than thanked to my heart for choosing you,
Yes you broke my heart for millionth times,
But you always put the pieces back together,
Heal it and make it crystal clear,
Of course you took a long time to conceal my pain,
But I kept on waiting,
I always will,
And it was worth it,
Because now,
On 'our' first anniversary,
You came,
You would never know how happy I was,
Just seeing you,
Lit me up,
It was crazy,
Nothing makes sense when it comes to you,
I feel stupid some time,
For waiting you like foolishly,
But what can I do,
To me you are my sanity,
When in reality you drove me crazy,
Here I am praying,
That someday,
You will talk to me,
Everyday I pray for the same thing,
Call me desperate,
I don't care,
Because your voice is what I need the most,
Or I will be lost,
I will keep waiting for another year,
If God wills,
Goodbye x.
