✵ Living in Color ✵ Ryden AU

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Ryan's POV:

I noticed them
I noticed the red seeping through his lavender hoodie.
I didn't ask about them.
I want him to be ok.
He's been very quiet recently.
I want to make him smile and laugh agian.
I want my Brendon back.
He won't talk to me about anything.
He keeps saying it's all fine.
It isn't fine.
I'm not fine.
He's not fine.
I can't loose him.
I'm going to ask him to be mine.

••••••••••••
"Brendon do you wanna go to dinner with me?"
"Sure"
"Like as a date?"
"Sure, what time Ry?"
"Well I'll be there to get you in 15 minutes"
"See you then Ryan"
"Bye love"
••••••••
He looks stunning.
He was quiet in the car.
He hasn't touched his food at all.
He keeps itching his wrist.
"Bren... i love you so much and I know you're hurting on the inside and you aren't telling me- but I've noticed. I've noticed the cuts, I've noticed how dull your eyes are. I've noticed how lifeless you are and I just want to see my Brendon again."
I start to cry.
He's slipping away from me.
So far away from me.
His eyes meet mine.
"I love you too Ryan"
He's crying now.
He pulls back his sleeves.
There's too many to count.
He's slowly fading away from me.
"I'm sorry Ryan, all I do is mess up I deserve this and I'm sorry you have to see this, I'm such a mess I don't know what to do anymore. I can't do it anymore"
He sobs.
He turns
He leaves the table.
He walks towards the door with his head down.
He left.

A/N: HOLY SHIT thank you all for 100+ views uhm what this book is trashy and so bad, why are people reading this.... -_-