All for her

chapter 2

Am doing all I can to avoid Luisa I don't go home on time sometimes I don't go home at all I am at work right now.

Doctor aliyah I was wondering if we could go out for a drink later today .I don't need to raise my head up to see who's talking I already know who. Am tired of this I've told this guy to back off but he keeps pestering me. I looked at him .what do you want?
Look I've told before Thomas I will never go out with you not as friends and most certainly not as lovers give up. Enough with the flowers and the gift basket it's  starting to creep me out. I looked at him and his smiling like a fool I can't take it. I snap and told him look Thomas I can't go out with someone like you and is not because you are the wrong gender but because you an imbecile. okay his not smiling anymore and now to crush him. Have you looked at the mirror lately you look like a flea bitten dog do your self a favor always look at the mirror on your way out. Now get the hell out. He ran out of my office I think I heard crying sounds though .Not like I care if he cries he basically asked for this. I know what everyone calls me at the hospital some say that bitch,others  she so heartless what  did you expect she as a stone for a heart but do I care no I do not. My shift is over anyways I should go home today.

As I was about to get into my car someone called my name I turned to see who great just great it's Linda I don't want to talk to her she thinks something  bad happened to me and that I need therapy. Well nothing this is the way i am. I have always been this way it's who I am. Aliyah how are you doing you see I was hoping we could talk. Look Linda I appreciate the concern but am tired of all this aren't you tired as well .I told you before and am telling you now nothing happened to me this is the way I am and if you can't see that may you need to throw away your medical license slap; she slapped me. Aliyah am so sorry but at the same time am not. All I want is for you  to change this part of you or you will end up alone no friends no nothing. I  tried not to give up on you since the first time but it's like you said am tired but that won't stop me from hoping that you will change. you once ask me why do I care so much well I care because you remind me of my sister she was so much like you but it was to late for her to change and it got her killed .The way you behave gets you a lot of enemies and one of them might just hurt you so please be careful that all I have to say goodnight. She walks away. I stood there for a bit before getting into the car. I drove off straight home parked the car in the garage. Knocked twice before Luisa opens the door. She put are hand on my face were Linda slapped me it feels nice I don't even listen to her when she asked what happened to  my face or who slapped me. Quickly I snap out of it and pushed her away. I went straight to my room,straight to bed I don't take of my clothes I just lie there thinking of today's events am worried Luisa is making me feel things I consider a waste of time lord help .

Thinking back to my mother's words when she told me even ice melt I guess she's right but I can't let this happen I love my life the way it is I don't have time for love or any other crap that goes along with it .whatever this feeling is am going to suppress it down I prefer my one night stand it's better no stress just pleasure.