Take This To Heart || ImmortalFox

Interlude: Terrible Things.

"Now, son, I'm only telling you this because life can do terrible things. You'll learn, one day, I'll hope and I'll pray, that God shows you differently.

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This letter is probably going to be really stupid. 

Of course it is but I'm worried sick and I guess you are too. You didn't sound so sure on the phone this morning and I wanted to make sure that you'd be okay in case anything bad happens.

Anyway, in case I don't come back, I want you to know that you really do mean a lot to me Aleksandr. You have made me feel more human than I ever have before. The other patients here and most of the staff treats me like a king and places me so high up because of my damn cancer and the "rareness" along with it. Yeah, I know, I should feel great, right?

I guess I'm just so lame.

But you and Eddie make me feel so alive. Thank you both for everything. Thank you for making me feel more welcome than extraordinary. All the attention left a bitter taste in my mouth.

The day we met, I thought you'd be another person I would push away. But you became my best friend in a matter of days. I have shared things with you that I have never told any other person. 

I wanted to say that you are a hero, Aleks. You're my hero. You gave me hope when I was feeling low and your random visits and the stories you told always made me feel so much better about slowly dying. We're saving each other and anyone reading this would know that right now. I wanted to give you words of wisdom before I leave.

I wanted to tell you that I wanted you and Eddie to get together the whole time and don't you dare throw that away. I'll fucking kill you both myself. Don't take love for granted. It may never come for either of you again.

I hope he remembers what I said to him when we met. About holding onto you, but I guess you didn't hear that. Oops.

It's easy for you two to stay in love. Hold each other close and never let go of that feeling and I promise that everything will be okay and it will all work out. 

Note that this surgery is risky and I may die. If I do pass on, take care of that boy. He's fragile. I've seen him develop since day one and he needs someone to hold him like you do. Not in a parental way of sorts, but make sure that he's safe and loved. Only you can do that for him, Aleks. I hope you know that. The way he talks about you and the way he smiles and brightens up just at the mention of your name is amazing and its something that makes all my worthless days so much better.

Your both his and my hero and we both need you, but if I am gone by the time you read this, understand that you need to love him twice as hard.

Keep fighting, Aleksandr Marchant, you are such a catch!

And tell Eddie Cardona that I've got my eye on him and if I die I'm going to come back as a ghost and slap the shit out of him, if anything happens to you. Same goes to you. If you're both dying, I'll be the one who'll push you out of the way and jump in front of a moving train for you, and I know you would both do just the same for each other.

I'm laughing right now, use that for emphasis?

Cool, thanks.

Hugs, drugs, and love, 

Kevin McFarlane. xox.

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The blue ink ran watery as Aleks' tears hit the torn notebook paper. He couldn't stop it from becoming unreadable, but he held it close to his chest and let the tears run down his face. Kevin had always been there for both of him, and he wishes that he could have done the same when he was still alive. 

"Goodnight, Prince," he whispers softly. 

Choking on his cries, he places the paper in his dresser drawer and falls back onto his mattress whilst pulling his knees to his chest.

He remembered Kevin's face every morning and now he'd never see it again. Soon, the boy would be buried under a gravestone. He could remember waving goodbye to the dark-haired boy who wore the brightest smile of them all.

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"She said, 'Boy can I tell you a terrible thing? It seems that I'm sick and I've only got weeks. Please, don't be sad now, I really believe, you were the greatest thing that ever happened to me.'"

(A/N: I should be sleeping right now. so if my family found me up at this hour they'd wring me by the fuckin' neck. if this is the last chapter I ever post then rip me)