To Heaven and Hell

Chapter 6

Chapter 6

Greyson

"Just relax," I pull Nix against me. "You are too high strung." My hand travels to her waist and I spin her around.

She grabs into my arm, so she won't fall over. She had one beer and I let her finish the third on of mine; it's become quite evident that she didn't drink much before she died. "Is this what you do?" she asks me over the sound of the music and the people around us. "You string girls along, tell them your story, and get them drunk, and dance with them."

I lean forward and whisper in her ear. "You are missing the ending." I smile when I hear her sharp intake of breath. Okay, so maybe that was a spur of the moment idea, but I wouldn't mind hooking up with this girl. I have shut myself out of this life in hell long enough, maybe it's time to have some fun.

Suddenly people start muttering my name. I can hear everyone saying it, and I know I am not hearing things. "What is that?" I ask to no one in particular. Nix looks confused. I spin around and then I see a crying girl stumbling in my direction. Through the brown hair and running makeup, I see Emily stumbling toward me. We sit next to each other in six classes, she is relativity nice when she isn't drugged up. I thinks that's the reason we relate so well--drugs.

She stumbles up grabbing my arm. She tries to form words but only sobs come from her mouth. "What is it?" I ask. "What happened? What's wrong?"

She does form on word: "Eden." She brushes her hair away from her face, and I can see a bruise forming across her neck. She drops to her knees crying, and Nix drops down next to her.

Hell no. That did not happen.

I push my way through people, rage going through my veins. I make my way back in the same direction that Emily came. I make my way to the woods and I finally see blonde hair. "Eden!" I shout at her.

"And what the hell do you want?" she asks, her tone exemplifies how pissed off she is.

"What the hell is your problem?" I shout at her. My mind become disconnected from my mouth and the words begin to tumble out. "Who do you think you are? What did Emily do that would piss you off so much that you would choke her like that? Are you drunk?" I pause. "Wait a second, don't answer that, because I know you are! You always are! You always have a drink in your hand! You are always intoxicated." She starts to back away from me, but I keep moving toward her. "You don't think! I am pretty sure that you have killed every brain cell that you ever had!" Her back hits a tree. "Did you ever think about any one but yourself! Did you ever consider the thought that you could have killed people the night you got into that car?" At this point I know that I have lost it. "A seventeen year old girl, drunk, behind the wheel of a car! What good can come from that? It was a stupid, stupid decision! You killed four people!"

"In case you forgot," she screams back at me, "I died in that wreck too!"

"Shut up!" I yell. "Do you ever think at all? You took away my mother from me! My sisters as well! You left me with a drunk off his ass, abusive father! You ruined my family! You took my whole life away from me! My little sisters had their whole lives ahead of them! And you screwed them over! And I'm here and I don't even get to see them!" At this point she is cowering against the tree as I tower over her.

"Grey please," she cringes away from me. "P-please, don't hurt me." She closes her eyes, her face scrunching up in fear.

I step back. She is scared. I've never seen her like this before.

"Greyson!" I spin to see Luca. "What the fuck are you doing? Get the hell away from her!" Luca comes up and shoves me. "What the hell is your problem?" Luca throws a punch and I just barely dodge it.

"Don't fight!" Nix comes out from behind a tree. She comes up to me, wobbling on her feet a bit, and grabs my arm. "Just let her be." She tugs on my sleeve. Resigned, my anger leaving my body, I let my feet follow. Just before we make it out of the trees, I turn my head back.

I see a sobbing Eden and Luca holding her in his arms. And he is glaring right at me.

No one wants to battle a psychopath.

Eden

"You think you're the only sane one? You're a fucking psycho!" I say while wiping my cheeks. Luca tries to grab me again, "get off me, please."

I'm leaving. I storm out of the clearing infuriated. Greyson thinks he has a sob story? He only knows a third of mine. He would never have the satisfaction of knowing the rest. No one in hell knows except for me. No one spirals without a push.

I shove branches and growth out of my way. When I make it to the strip of grass between the dorms is a lone figure. I usually would be a little afraid that someone is randomly there alone. But then I notice his golden blonde hair. Of course Aspen had skipped the party. Greyson thinks he can cry like he's the only one who has been wronged? Take Aspen for example, he doesn't even bring it up. Greyson should try and do that. You think I wanted to kill innocent girls? You think I wanted to commit homicide behind the wheel?

Luca, he's just making me mad. Does he care, really? Of course he doesn't. Who does down here? When I reach my dorm I unlock the door and slam it. I'm not sure why that gives me satisfaction, no one is here to hear it anyways.

I throw my clothes to the floor as I open my closet. I hate sleeping. One of the reasons I would party all night is to avoid it. I would be so tired when I got home that my sleep was dreamless. That's just how I like it. This time I dont have a choice. When I close my eyes I feel it. The pulling on my eyelids and the gurgling screams. Crashing cars isn't the only thing that haunts me.

I can feel it coming. The words were already forming on my lips.

"Let me go, please!"

Every morning it happens I have to slather on concealer to cover my dark shadows. Makeup can only do so much.

I'm tired of fighting. I let it consume me.