My Mixed Up Life

Chapter 4

I'm not clinically depressed but sometimes I feel like it.

I guess I should start this chapter off right... Buy telling you what made me like this, but it's not like anybody in real life cares so I'll just write about it.

The first major event in my life that made me like this was when I was in 7th grade, somethining really bad happened to me. It was directly to me but it effected me greatly.

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Today was just a normal day. I woke up at 6:30am.

I got to school on time. everything was normal. But 5th hour changed my life.

Forever.

There was no going back. They called me to the office.

When I got there, I saw my mom.

I knew she was on the verge of tears. I have never seen her like this. The way she looked at me... I knew something was definatly wrong...

I got into the car and she burst into tears.

I didn't know what to do... She was crying and I started crying but I didn't even know what to say.

She said "we have to go to Des Moines."

I wasn't really sure why we had to go to Des Moines. But I really didn't know how to ask. The 3 hour drive was terrible.

It was the absolute longest 3 hours ever.

Finally when we got to Des Moines we went to my Aunts house. Everyone was clearly upset.

My aunt told me what had happened the night before.

"I went into labor, and we couldn't save the baby. It was too early, I was within hours of dying." Tears were streaming down her face.

I instantly started bawling uncontrollably.

Never have I ever had to deal with death. And I didn't know what to do.

Dying was my fear.

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