my inspiration the smile of gold this girl she looks a the world with fearful eyes shes hurt broken but standing tall and strong in the face of hate but behind closed doors beats herself till shes black and blue in the soul and ospirit but still this girl this woman this beauty this queen my muse my inpiration my everything she meant the world to me and still does even after she broke us apart my shattered heart broken and beaten bloody black and blue still beats with what strength it has left for her she is the reason i wake up at all the hope that helps me stand tall she is the light that keeps me going towards the end of the shadowed dark tunnel the one true meaning to my love and my heart and while she shatered it purposefully or not i will continue to love her with everything ive got this is why she means the world to me and why i need here right next to me im clingy im annoying im stupid and gross but she didnt care she she loved me anyways for who i was for how i was for how i felt and what i did i know i pissed her off on more than one occasion i hurt her once or twice in the emotional realm though not on purpouse i would rather burn in hell shes my everyting and i cant loose her i dont know why but her feelings changed or at least thats what she said well i guess that is the end of a time of my smiles her laughter my life of love and joy with her the one who was meant for this boy i just want to say im sorry i failed i couldnt get through i did not prevail im sorry i hurt you im sorry i cut im sorry i tried to die in the night but this boy loves you with all that hes got you dont have to love him back but dont leave him behind hed rather be freinds than to have you fade into time its time ive ended this solem syne i dont know when ill be back but when i am ill see you next time
