Tainted Love .:. 2jae

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Jaebum got up from the bed that youngjae and him were in and dressed his naked self. He heard a sound and saw youngjae sit up from the bed and he also started to get changed.

It was dead silent in the room, except for the breeze outside. You could hear the distinct noise of the trees when their leaves shook. Everything was peaceful outside, but you couldn't say that about the inside of their apartment. The air was heavy and awkward. It was as if it put a seal on their mouths keeping them from conversing with one another. When they were done getting dress Youngjae was the first to break that silence and spoke up to Jaebum while they were still in the bedroom.

"What are we Jaebum?" Youngjae asked the older curiously.

"Whatever you want us to be Youngjae,"

That answer would not cut it for Youngjae, he wanted to hear what they were from the older's lips. He didn't want to assume and end up heart broken. The younger wanted to know where he stood with Jaebum. What was he to the older?

"What am I to you? A sexual partner?" The younger was shooting a nasty glare at this point to Jaebum.

"No you are not like them, you are different,"

"Different? In what way am I different from your hookups when all we do is have sex? That's not healthy," That is what Youngjae was thinking, but he would never have the guts to say that outloud to Jaebum's face.

"Jaebum our relationship isn't built on a healthy foundation," Jaebum's face was void of any and all emotions at this point, it was a blank canvas.

"What do you mean?" Jaebum questions slowly losing patience with Youngjae.

Youngjae wasn't sure why he snapped, but it was probably because of how used he felt and how he must've just been another one of Jaebum's hookups. He didn't want to be one and he wasn't willing to be one if that was the case.

"SEX ISN'T ALL THAT I WANTED FROM YOU JAEBUM!" Jaebum never expected the younger to snap like this, but Youngjae wasn't done yet.

"I WANT TO FEEL LOVED, I WANT TO FEEL SECURE, AND IF SEX IS ALL YOU WANT FROM ME YOU'LL HAVE TO FIND SOMEONE ELSE BECAUSE I AM NOT THAT KIND OF PERSON!"

"Youngjae I love you so much don't you see that?" Jaebum felt a pang of sadness hit his heart.

"Do you tell that to everyone of those one-night stands and hookups you bring home?"

"Youngjae don't push it," Jaebum warned while gritting his teeth.

"WHY CAN'T I HUH? DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH IT HURTS TO SEE YOU WITH SOMEONE THAT ISN'T ME? IT HURTS SO MUCH JAEBUM!" The yelling from Youngjae and soon Jaebum couldn't take it anymore.

Jaebum pushed Youngjae against the bedroom wall and held his hands above his head. Youngjae was starting to get flustered as Jaebum brought his mouth to Youngjae's ear and whispered in it.

"Me hurting you ruins me Youngjae, more than you'll ever know,"

The older then roughly pressed his mouth against the younger making out with him, the passion was felt and so was the heat. Jaebum started to tug off Youngjae's shirt and the latter raised his arms up to help him out. The then older detached his lips and brought them to Youngjae's ear to whisper in it.

"Youngjae I love you so much that it hurts. I didn't want to taint you and the only way I thought I could distract myself was with someone that wasn't you," The older male admitted sadly, but every word was the truth.

"Why?"

"Because I didn't want this to happen,"

"You didn't want what to happen Jaebum?"

"I knew that I wouldn't be able to control myself around you and then you would think I was just treating you like one of my hookups," Jaebum looked down almost ashamed of what had just come out of his mouth.

"Then prove it to me," Youngjae loudly whispered to Jaebum.

Jaebum's eyes widened to what the younger had said. Youngjae was whispering in Jaebum's ear this time and it really teased Jaebum to do so. He swallowed and tried to process what Youngjae had said.

"Prove what?" The older questioned with a confused expression visible on his face.

"Prove that I am not just another one of your hook ups"