imperfections

amber

tim and i are cuddling on my couch, watching a movie. he's playing with my hair and im laying on his chest.

"i love you, riland." tim says playing with my hair.

"i love you too, baby." i say kissing his chin.

a loud banging noise wakes me up. i look around and see everyone's sleeping and i realize that that was all a dream. fucking tessa putting things in my head and now im dreaming about this bullshit. the banging happens again causing me to jump and i realize it's the door. tessa wakes up as well.

"can you come with me to get the door." i say looking at my phone to check the time which reads 4:49 am. tessa just nods and grabs a vase. i look at her with a confused look on my face.

"just in case.. ya know."

i just nod and go up to answer the door. i slowly open the door and im suddenly pushed back when the door goes flying open.

"where the fuck is he?" amber says looking around my house.

"josh is fucking sleeping, you cannot just come barging in my house at fucking 4 in the fucking morning. my mom is fucking sleeping." i say crossing my arms and rolling my eyes.

"good thing, i don't care. show me where the fuck he is. he hasn't been answering my text!" amber says getting in my face and yelling at me.

"i should fucking hit you with this vase you twat, i think riland said her mom is fucking sleeping and so is josh, so beat it bitch." tessa says yanking amber back and pointing to the door.

"im not going any-"

amber is cut off when the lights turn on and my mom is there standing at the top of the stairs.

"what is going on here? all this yelling? do you see the time!? im trying to sleep here, i told you guys keep it down and who is this?" my mom says coming down and tying her rob.

"just another friend mom. we're sorry, we'll keep it down. you can go back to bed, it won't happen again." i say almost vomiting at calling amber a friend.

"very sorry mrs. mckanny." tessa says hiding the vase behind her back.

she shakes her head and heads back up the stairs, turning off the lights. i roll my eyes and just head down to the den, signaling for amber to follow down. i wake josh up by shaking him.

"your cunt is here." i say fake smiling at him and turning on the lights with the remote. i sit down on the couch and stare at amber, annoyed. josh slowly gets up, rubbing his temples. he looks over at amber and shakes his head.

"what're you doing here?" tim says sounding defeated and getting up.

"you haven't been answering my texts! i even called you 5 times! 5 fucking times! surprised you weren't fucking this whore over here!" amber says pointing at me and my blood starts to boil.

"i would never do anything like that! these are my best friends! when have i ever done shit like that with even a guy!" i say getting up and getting into her face. my hands starts to go into a fist and i can feel myself about to punch her in her pretty fucking nose.

"oh bitch, no you did not just try my best friend. im about to fuck you up with this vase!" i can hear tessa yell, but i continue to stare amber down.

"woah, everyone just calm down." i can hear tim say in the background.

"you won't fucking dare hit me, slut. i know these boys all ran a train on you bitch, except that little lesbian bitch. i don't even understand how they're your friends! i mean look at you! you're so disgusting!" amber says pointing in my face.

"oh no, she did not!"

"tessa, stop!" jon yells. i can see tessa grab amber's hair and hit her. everyone trying to get tessa off. i can't do anything. amber just embarrassed me in front of all of my friends, not the first time. this time it hurt me more than the others. i tried to bring my self confidence up and now im here back at square one. of course i didn't sleep with my best friends, but why are they friends with me? i start hysterically crying.

"get out amber! we're done! we're so done! you come in my best friend's house at fucking 4 am? say the worst shit to her? insulting her and tessa! and i can't stand you anymore. fucking leave!" i hear josh yell which snaps me back into reality. i can see amber crying, running back up the stairs and hopefully out of my fucking house. josh walks over to me and he looks so upset.

"im sorry rils. im sorry i didn't break up with her sooner. i-"

"no, it's okay. she's right. why are you even my friends? i am disgusting." i say cutting josh off, trying to wipe away the tears that keep falling.

"because we fucking love you, you're amazing and you're beautiful. you're not disgusting at all baby." tessa says hugging me.

"don't listen to that bitch, there's a reason you're our best friend and she's my brothers girlfriend and we don't even want to hangout with her. you're fucking gorgeous tessa.. inside and out." tim adds in, which makes me smile a bit.

"they're right, we don't listen to stuck up bitches like that. we fucking love you riland." jon says joining the hug. i smile, biting my nails.

"thank you guys." i say looking down at my feet.

"let's all have a group hug." jon says signaling the twins over to join in. we have a group hug and then everyone goes back to sleep. except me. they said those nice things to me, but it's still getting to me, what amber said. i try not to cry and close my eyes to try and sleep.