Loneliness Has Conquered Me, Or Has It?

Intro

            Hi. I'm not going to tell you my real name, but I am going to tell you my real story. I'm a junior in high school, but that is not where this story starts. This story starts with a girl in 7th grade, the year in which she started losing hope in herself.

          This story starts with boys, because honestly, why not? If you've ever liked someone and found out they didn't feel the same way, you'd be upset, right? Some people are strong, and they can take it like pros, but I'm definitely not one of those people. As I got older, I started looking down on myself. Saying things like "I'm not pretty enough, I'm too obnoxious for anyone to love me, I'm just an idiot." My friends would say that none of those things were true, but still, I felt like they did to me.

         I get so connected to people, that I lose a piece of myself when they leave. Here's something I wrote freshman year.

All these pills, yet I still can't numb the pain of losing you. As I fall asleep, I think of you. It's so hard to think that someone could give you both dreams and nightmares. As I look into your eyes, I realize that I could face the world. You are the only one who can make me laugh when there's tears streaming down my cheeks. You make me feel like we are in a fairy tale that never ends. You promised me that you'd never leave, but you never promised that you'd keep all of your promises. All it takes is your laugh to brighten my day. A single smile could last a lifetime. One simple word could change everything, whether good or bad. Did you truly love me? Or was that just one more promise broken? I've only thought of you once, because after that, you never left my mind. I dream of your soft lips on mine, and wake up with tears slipping out of my eyes. Why did I have to meet you? You filled that hole in my chest, but when you left, you made it even bigger. That's the funny thing about love, you try and try to fill the whole in your heart, but just end up making it bigger.

Well, my intro will be short. I'll tell you more about me in the first chapter. Thank you for reading.