You're Still You

You're Still ...

Kihyun was awaken by the sound of his alarm. He was startled for a second and groaned. His body is aching and his head felt no better. Last night was hectic and exhausting. He slept only for three hours.

He forced himself to get up after a bit of turning and tossing around his bed. He looked around and stretched his body before finally stepping into wooden floor. He stopped for a while, checking the weather outside through his bedroom window and smiled unconsciously. The sky was clear and fresh. It was such a nice weather to start his day. 

The thought of meeting his beloved made his heart swelled with happiness despite his not-so-fit condition due to lack of sleep. He hummed a sweet tone while entering the bathroom after taking a clean towel from his closet.

After taking his time in the bathroom, he picked his clothes carefully. He was a neat type of guy with a simple taste in fashion. His everyday clothes consist of jeans, T-shirt or plaid, jacket or hoodie and sneakers. He only put so much effort in fashion on special occasion or on a mission -- date mission or some kind of that. Today, he felt like wearing a fresh and bright color clothes though he hesitated a bit because his beloved would look at him in a playful smirk and probably non-stop teasing comments until he whined and frowned in a cute way to make him stop. 

Kihyun smiled and decided that it was worth it. He loved how his beloved teased him anyway. He never complains because he knew that non-stop teasing is one of unique ways of his beloved expressed his feeling towards him. His beloved rarely showed emotional expression. He mostly only answered if anyone took a chance to ask. He would start conversation only when he was interested or intrigued by something or someone. But he mostly looked drowned in his own thoughts. He was calm and collected, laid back and independent. He hated clingy relationship and heavy emotion since he is a free soul inside. He is a strong man who hid so many things behind his genuine smile. The smile that intrigued Kihyun at first after he saw him still smiling when he was betrayed by his previous girlfriend (Kihyun is his first boyfriend after the betrayal). Or when he was rejected by a company after company after sending many job applications. Or when he got injured in his legs during dance practice (yes, his beloved was a talented man with no-joke dancing skill). Or when his best friend died on an accident. He hid all those sadness and bitterness behind his lovely smile.

Kihyun once asked about why he didn't let himself show his emotion. He simply answered, " I don't know, Kihyun-ah. I just feel awkward of my own feelings. Funny huh? It's bothering me when I find myself being in a hurtful or unexpected situation. I don't know how to react. Seriously, sometimes I even wonder if I am really a robot myself or a clone." 

The last sentence was replied by a light smack on his bulky arm by Kihyun.

After getting done with his clothes (soft pink shirt and navy ripped jeans with white sneakers), he prepared his breakfast quickly and ate it. After that, he took a backpack full with clothes which he prepared last night and checked his apartment to make sure he locked and left everything intact before leaving his apartment.

On his way to meet his beloved, he stopped in a bakery and bought cheesecakes. And he stopped again at a florist to buy a bucket of fresh white and red chrysanthemums.

30 minutes later.

" Has he waken up?" Kihyun asks quietly to a woman who is changing bed sheet and cleaning the room.

The woman first looked startled but after recognizing his face, she smiled. " He has, Mr. Yoo. He is in the garden with Jooheon. He said he wanted to take a walk a bit."

"Oh. Okey, thank you. I will put this for a while" Kihyun showed his flower bucket to the woman with his smile.

The woman nodded. " I have finished cleaning, Mr. Yoo. I will leave you then." She bowed a little and followed by Kihyun and then she left.