Dont call me crazy

N/A this is my first story hope you like please give feedback xx

"My name is Lily Carter and I have schizophrenia, Bulimia and bipolar disorder"

This is how I start every Wednesday morning. I wouldn't say it's the highlight of being in The Macmillan under 18 mental health ward but it's not the worst part.

I continue,

"I am 16 years old and I have been on this ward for 1 year 3 months and two days"

Group therapy is 'a beneficial way of understanding your illness with other people who can understand what you are going through'. This is how it was first described to me so long ago.

They lied.

Finally,

"Being on this ward has helped me understand my illness and helped me on the road to recovery"

I echo this same monologue every week.

Over the weeks I have learned to say just the right thing for people not to get that interested in me. My biggest fear is that one day someone will notice that I repeat the same thing and make me change it but so far so good.

People clap and then we move on to the next person in the circle.

Today the person sat to my right and next to talk is Connie. A girl that has only been here 3 weeks but made an interesting impression on the ward.

"My name is Connie", she starts, " I have recently been diagnosed with PTSD and EDNOS".

She's made an impression because for the last two group therapies she has cried at exactly the same point. At about now she starts sobbing.

"I'm sorry but this place has made me realise how lucky I am to be able to recover so quickly and to be able to have made so many friends here"

She stops.

I want to throw up.

She gets a big sympathetic clap and I look down and fiddle with my bracelets. I can't stand looking at her face. I would punch her if I did. Thank god she is leaving today.

Another one to go and leave me behind that's 37 to come and go now. When did I become the legend of this place. Where the fuck is my recovery gonna get here cuz it's taking it's fucking time!

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