"You always fucking shit up." I said to myself in the mirror as I fixed my hair. Surprisingly, ski invited me to a barbecue they were having at his beach house. Me and mya decided to go since she was feeling ski. You would've thought Arielle had a thing for ski but surprisingly she has a thing for wifi.
An incoming call came in interrupting my music. It was x. Bitch when I tell you I threw my fucking hair in a ponytail so quick and put on mascara .
"Hey."
"What type of shit you was on last night? " x said as I looked into the camera. He was looking sooo fine with his dreads hanging down his face.
"I just...I don't know to be honest jah." I said forcing a smile on my face as x laughed in the camera.
"Where you at?" I said looking in the background.
"In my car, speaking of which, open the door." He said before hanging up. I ran downstairs and opened the door to see jahseh. He stepped in before giving me a long kiss .
"Jahseh what-" I started before I was cut off.
"I like you a lot, I thought about it last night." Jahseh said before hugging me .
"I like you a lot jahseh." I said smiling and closing my eyes. He let me go before staring at me and kissing me hard as fuck.
"I've been waiting to put my hands on you." He mumbled before pushing me on the couch. We started making out on the couch before he pulled off his shirt.
"Chill we not fucking yet, I'm just hot as fuck." He said before kissing me again and getting up to use the bathroom.
I sat on the couch and scrolled past a picture with jahseh so I scrolled back up to see it and I wish I didn't. I felt the tears prickle through my eyes as I watched jahseh and his ex make out. It was posted 12 mins ago and the caption said , "last night with my fiancé 💫"
"Hey baby what's wrong with you?" He came back in the room trying to love me. I sat there empty. emotionless. Dead.
"You thought about how you liked me last night , right." I said facing him with a dead look on my face. He looked confused as he raised his eyebrow.
"Yeah bae didn't I tell you that?" He said trying to kiss my neck. I thumped him on his cheek and stood up.
"You thought about liking me after you fucked your fiancé?" I said calmly as I stared at him and recognized his true intentions with me.
"You-you just wanted to fuck me and label me as yours." I said feeling the tears fall down my cheeks. I hated crying so it only made me even angrier.
"Wait what the fuck you talking about? I ain't even wanna fuck you ." He said as he stood up and put his shirt on. He looked at me before slamming the door. I fell to the floor on my knees and crawled into a ball.
"Fuck were you thinking? He's not going to love you dumb ass bitch." I heard a voice say. I looked up to see the devilish version of me standing there. I have to be tripping because I can't believe my eyes.
"This is all your mind, it's not real unless you want it to be." She said popping her gum and wiping horns before sitting on my couch.
"What do you mean about jahseh?" I asked sitting up and wiping my dry eyes. She rolled her eyes and said,
"Isn't it obvious, if he was really fucking with you like he claimed to be, he wouldn't come back with a hoe of a fiancé." She said buffing her nails and looking down.
"Yeah bye." I said shaking my head and pinching my arm. I opened my eyes to see no one there. Stupid fucking anxiety.
I walked upstairs to my bedroom to see jahseh laying in my bed.
"I don't fuck with that groupie, and I heard you talking to yourself downstairs ." He mumbled as he stirred through the blankets to give me room. I walked over and sat on the bed just staring at him.
"You don't love me." I whispered before laying down with him facing the other way.
"I don't have to love you to care about you." He whispered as I dozed off to sleep.
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Some Kill, Some Steal, Some Break Your Heart.
🥀: j finally updated lol it's been forever. I've had writers block but I'm currently listening to garrets revenge. what's your favorite song by x or ski?
