IshRa FF- Love Doesn't Lessen, In fact it Deepens (COMPLETED)

Part 37

Keeping the phone down, ishita slumped on the sofa as her mind was is a complete mess. She had heard abt that side of the man she knew which she cud nt even imagine in her wilest of dreams. Although she had always felt and wanted that raman crave for her , cry for her and pain for her but hearing abt his suffering from the horse's mouth had stupefied ishita completely. At that point she felt like breaking down herself, she asked herself-" kya faayda mere pyaar ka agar maine unhe itna dard diya toh? Unhone mera trust toda par maine bhi toh unka trust toda, I left him after promising to be wid him always , maine toh unhe hi tod diya, I am soo bad, main bohot buri hoon." And she cried her heart out thinking abt what to do next as she felt she had no guts to even say sorry to raman as she thought that the word SORRY wud be veryyyy minute in front of the pain he had gone through.

After an hour of crying, she finally stepped in the dark bedroom and pretended to go to the washroom , stealing glances at raman trying to see what he was doing. She saw him wiping a tear and walking out of the bedroom as if he cud not face her, cud not be wid her in these last moments which they had. She washed her face and got freshened up in the washroom and as she stepped out of the washroom and saw aarav sleeping on the bed , suddenly a mixed feeling of loneliness, pain , guilt, love , longing , desire and relief hit her. 

She realized she cud not imagine herself and aarav alone in this room without raman from 2moro . it was as if she was used to his precense beside her on the bed and around her in the room and life. She was struck by a strong sense of fear, fear of being alone from 2moro and her heart and mind too a decision in that moment. She realized she cud not live without him, " main raman ke bina nahin reh sakti , I can't . I love him too much to let him go. And I will have to stop him . now or never ishita ,just do it kyunki agar tu aaj nahi kar paayi toh kabhi nahi kar paayegi." Saying these words to herself , she determinedly walked towards the drawing room to talk to raman and open her heart out finally. Sometimes in life , a single moment,a second is enough for realization and taking decision, it was that EUREKA moment for ishita. In that single lonely moment in room without raman, she realized she cud not let him go and that was it.

She came to the drawing room and saw raman sitting wid his back towards her and face towards the window. She cud see him crying silently and wiping his tears and at that moment his tears pained her more than they pained himself as they always had even in the past. She spoke up-" Raman..."

Raman was a bit surprised hearing her voice but then felt maybe she was here to ask him why he was not sleeping so he just replied-" hmmm bolo?"

Ishita cud not talk while he faced away so she started taking slow steps towards him and once again said-" raman , suno....."

This time raman cud not bear it anymore, he just felt like spitting out all his thoughts out at that moment and he did exactly that as he said-" ishita, mat karo plzzz..mat karo aisa mere saath..."

Ishita cud see the look of a defeated man on that face and she cud not bear it any longer and immediately tried to answer him back sayinh-" raman ...main , tumse..."

Raman was so blown over by emotions at that moment that he did not allow ishita to complete her sentence and now started blabbering-" ishita nahi plz u listen to me for once , mat karo aisa plzz , tum jaanti ho how much I love u , the whole family loves u , ruhi loves u toh phir tum yeh kyun kar rahi ho? Ek saal pehle tum sab kuch chodkar aa gayein but I understood ur decision as galti meri thi, maine tumhe uske liye kabhi kuch nahi kaha kyunki Mujhe laga main who deserve karta tha aur waakayi tumhare jaane ke baad Mujhe tumhari importance ka ehsaas hua aur pehle se zyaada hua. Mujhe samajh aaya that I cannot live without u aur isiliye jab tumse ek saal baad mila toh I thought ab tumhe mana kar le jaaunga apne saath , apne ghar par tum.... Tum toh apne dil mein deewar khadi kar chuki ho mere, ruhi ke hum sab ke khilaaf. Tumhe dikhta hi nahi ki how much we need u , ya phir tum jaan boojhkar dekhna nahi chahtin but suddenly I realized just now kit um kyun nahi maan rahi ho, its becoz I haven't actually said u SORRY. Haan Mujhe bolna chahiye tha toh main ab bol raha hun I AM SORRY ISHITA, Mujhe maaf kar do plz, maine bohot galat kiya tumhara bharosa todkar aur main apne aap ko kabhi maaf nahi kar paaunga yeh karne ke liye tumhare saath , but plz tumne jitni sazaa deni thi de li yaar plzzz ab waapis ghar chalo , everyone needs u ishita, ruhi needs u even aarav needs his family ishita plzz maan jao. "

Ishita was shocked and crying continuously thinking how much helpless she had made raman and so she tried to stop him saying-" raman suno plzzz main....."

But raman was in no mood to stop that day , he continued like a small child cribbing and crying-" aur haan tum mujhse gussa ho na , toh tum bachi huyi sazaa Mujhe ghar par deti rehna, puri zindagi deti rehna I dnt mind but plzzz waapis chalo ghar , I can't live without u anymore ishita even the thought that kal se main tumhe dekh nahi paaunga kills me every second , every breath I take suffocates me without u being wid me, plzzzz waapis chalo ishita I love u , main nahi reh sakta tumhare bina , Mujhe tumhari zaroorat hai ishita plzzz." 

And he broke down crying and kneeled down. Ishita also kneeled down in front of him and said-" meri baat sunoge bhi?? Kitna bolte ho yaar bolne hi nahi de rahe ho. Ab utho plzz Mujhe tumse baat karni hai." She supported a sobbing raman to get up from the floor and made him sit on sofa and have water so that his sobs cud be controlled a little.

After few minutes of silence ishita spoke up-" raman aap theek keh rahe the aaj sham ko, kal se meri life mein koi problem nahi rahegi , pata hai kyun? Kyunki kal se who sab mere saath honge jo mere liye zaroori hain, meri family, mere bachche, mera ghar aur aap, haan kal se jab mere paas sab kuch hga toh meri saari problems toh solve ho hi jaayengi na? aakhir mera pati meri life mein koi problem thodi toh nahi aane dega , haina?" and what she saw on raman's face was epic, his change of expressions from hopelessness to sadness to surprise and finally to a mild shock and confusion as he looked at her with inquiring eyes to make her continue.

Ishita said-" raman aap meri life ki problem kabhi nahi ho sakte kyunki aap hi toh meri life ho na? main aapke saath ghar chalungi , apne ghar, hamare ghar samjhe. Yehi toh kehne aayi thi aapse par aap hain ki sunte hi nahin hain, jabse main aayi hun bole jaa rahe hain bachchon ki tarah jaise bachcha lollipop ke liye ro raha ho. Ufff aap bhi na bilkul bachche ho Mujhe bolne hi nahi diya toh ab suniye main aapke saath chalungi, lekar challenge Mujhe mere ghar, hamare ghar??"

Raman cud not believe his ears as well as his luck, the words which he wantd to hear since long had finally come out and he cud not believe it was happening. He just smiled mildly as he did not knew what to say but finally he said-" hum ghar challenge ishita par pehle aaj raat tum ujhe who sab bataogi jo bhi tumhare saath ek saal pehle hua, tum kyun ghar seaayin uske peeche ek aur wajah thi aur who jaane bina na main khud yahan se jaaunga na hi tumhe jaane dunga so out wid it now."

Ishita was in a fix but she knew she cud not let it go dis time and said-" raman , bohot lambi kahani hai phir kisi din?"

Raman-" bilkul nahi aaj main jaane nahi doonga kitni bhi lambi kahani ho sunao , puri raat hai na sunao."

Ishita finally said –" ok but promise aap aaram se shanti se sunoge aur phir kuch kahoge."

Raman-" promise."

And ishita started narrating the incident which changed their lives for almost 1 and half years.