I'm crying and cutting, and I cannot stop
They tell me I need help but I just cannot
It's hopeless this road is
It leads no where but down
Into a bottomless pit, where my heart slowly drowns
I've tried writing my feelings, but it only makes it worse
These depressive feelings get worse with each verse
I know it sounds cheesy, but this is how I feel
I just keep falling upwards, head over heels
Closer to heaven am I each day
How easy it would be, my own life to take
Such a simple task because I am so weak
There's nothing around except fear and it's stink
The smell stinges my nostril and cuts up my heart
There's nothing I can do, except let myself fall apart
It's painful, this process, so why not end it now
Because my life is what I'm ending, I'd just be letting you down
I'm a failure, a reject, yet I'm quite popular at school
But no one sees the real me, just a rich quite girl
Of course nothings wrong, I am always happily smiling
But did it ever occur that this smile is just my outer lining
Never once did you ask if I was feeling okay
Not even the day I cried and ran away
You just acting as if things were perfectly fine
But this is the night that this lonely girl dies
Author's Note:
Hello. This is how I feel. I do not plan on committing suicide, cutting is just my way of releasing pain and anger. So please no comments about how there are better ways to deal with my feelings! I'm fine, I just have depression. One day I will learn to be happy, that day just isn't today.
Q: How do you deal with your feelings? Do you write in a journal, sing, cry to music, eat chocolate...or is that just me? (Tell me in the comments!)
