Annihilation Of Hearts

Silent Cries

Can you hear?
Did you see my tear?
A tear that has turned into cries,
My smiles are frequent lies.

Muffled Screams,
So it seems.
Keeping them in,
My chance on that is thin.

Can you see the light that's starting to fade?
Look at what a mess i've made.
As I lose my balance on the boat I row,
I start to fall into the water and slowly drown

Failed Tries,
Silent Cries.
Sweet goodbyes,
Expressions for lies.

How many more times do I have to fix the Dam?
When my life is making me shout Damn!
Stupid, yes I know,
Wrong ways I go.

Storms by tears,
Held back for years.
Here I am speaking nonsense,
Someone hit me some sense.

Rhyming things here and there,
Trying hard to do so, but I dont care.
I'm laughing and crying,
I'm trying but failing.
Not giving up, but lost..
Where do I cross?

Right? Left? Forwards?
Where towards?
Follow the path my parents once followed?
Or the path that hasn't been explored that's now so hollow?

Once again the drops of water from my eyes fall,
But yet I stand tall.
I have to, this is what is needed,
Strength.
I have to at least keep the storm as quiet to the extent.
So I stay quiet..

Swallowed screams,
Silence is followed
Dropped dreams,
Disappointment is followed.

I then keep what I want to say inside,
And I look in hindsight,
Aware, aware of everything.
Aware when someone will be leaving.

So I keep my screams to myself,
My tears in a jar, stocked away in a shelf.
Kept safely there for no one to break it nor open it,
Because I'd break down even in the slightest

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What the hell is this?
This doesnt look one bit good to me but Because I worked hard thinking about this, im uploading it.

I honestly hate forgetting ideas.