Fix my broken heart

June 1,2017

Well I guess I'm telling you about my day and let me tell you it was like any other day. In school it was boring like always thankfully we end on the ninth of this month June; I really struggled this year, and I always struggle but hopefully there's people to help you through what ever struggle and or struggles your dealing with. Man how I wish to graduate high school, that's my goal for next year of course because I'm in the eleventh grade and this year is basically over next week and let me tell you I am really happy for this summer I hope and believe to get a job. Tomorrow I have an interview with McDonald's well not exactly, McDonald's is having open interviews now I know McDonald's is not the best job to start with I really believe I'll get the job and not have to worry about being broke all the time. At least I will be making my own money. Anyways I've been thinking a lot about my love life lately, and I honestly don't want to think about but I can't help the feeling, an ugly boy like me will never find love again or actually reach that point of an actual relationship but it's ok I guess at least I'm confident in getting this job. I came home with mixed feelings like if I can tell you how many emotions run through my head each day I think I would either make someone cry,angry,emotional,distressed or maybe even insecure its crazy. I miss my friend Jamal he post on Snapchat all the time but believe it or not I'm starting to forget about him. I mean I know he's straight and he's not my boyfriend I'm starting to forget he even exists sometimes as much as I hate to say it I know he would want me to forget about him, I mean this little obsession I have for him needs to stop, well I wouldn't really call it an obsession I have strong feelings for him towards him yeah there you go I said it. Although Jamal is an adult now and he has more things to worry about than a teen that has strong feelings for him but it's because he was there for me for years and I'm always going to be there for him. He has way more responsibilities than I do of course, and he deserves a loving girlfriend you know one to satisfy him and also make love to him every single day. I'll probably talk about him later on but for right now I guess I'm going to have to let it go.