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Chapter 2

*Flashback*

Shit.

I sigh as I look down at all the boxes of pads and tampons I just dropped. Great.

I squat down, biting my lip to stop myself from screaming from the pain in my stomach. If only I had a boyfriend to run these errands for me...

Shut up. You don't need a man. You're just hormonal.

I sigh as I use the shelf for support to stand back up with one hand, three boxes in the other. As I put them away, I wanted to cry as I look at all the rest of the boxes I have to pick up. Gosh, I hate shark week.

I squat down again to grab a couple more boxes. As I pull myself up again, I stumble and almost fall back, but my back hits something hard.

"Oh sorry," I say to the guy I just fell on to. Can the ground just swallow me now?

"Don't sweat it." He has a really low, smooth voice. I didn't dare look him in the eyes for more than two seconds, though. I'm too embarrassed at my clumsiness. "Here, let me get that for you." He bends down and grabs the remaining boxes off the ground.

"Thank you." I smile at him. Oh shit.

He knows I'm on my period now. He literally just picked up tampons oh my god. I should've stopped him. Gosh I should've told him I could-

"Of course," he smiles back. I look down and throw the boxes I had in my hands onto the shelf. I look back up at him, and he's watching me intently. I quickly look away, feeling my cheeks heat up.

What's wrong with me.

"My name's Grayson, by the way."

"Lord, there you are!" Alaina grabs my basket off the floor and grabs me by the arm. "I've been looking for you! Come on, we're gonna be late for the movie."

I turn back and look at Grayson. "It was nice meeting you!"

*Present*

I stare at my coffee, swirling around the mixing stick. I can't stop thinking about that damn guy. I barely even talked to him and I had such a real-feeling dream about him. It was so uncalled for. It was so sexual.

"Girl are you good?" Alaina asks. "You haven't touched your brunch." I look up at her and manage a smile. "Yeah I'm good. I just had a bad dream."

"What happened?"

I feel my cheeks heat up as I think about it. "I can't really remember anymore," I lie. She can probably tell, Alaina knows me too well.

"Bullshit."

"Alaina!"

"What, Lana? I know you're lying, you remember your dream and clearly it messed you up. Just tell me what happened, and maybe I can help you."

"Ugh, fine. Remember when we went to the store before going to the theatre yesterday?"

"Yup, and I also remember how you almost made us late for the movie."

I roll my eyes and giggle before continuing. "Well, there was this guy..."
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"Oh my gosh," Alaina says. "I can't believe I pulled you away from him when you were talking."

"Alaina, that is so not the point!" I say. "I just want to stop thinking about him already, it's getting annoying. I hate this."

"Lana you're being a bit dramatic. It was just a dream. Who knows if you'll even see him again?"

"You're right. I really hope I'll never see him again." The two of us giggle as I feel a bit better. I've never been one to like a guy. Not that I like Grayson... how could I? I barely talked to him. And he also had a weird smirk on his face that I didn't really appreciate.

Don't lie to yourself, Lana.

But if I ever feel myself developing the slightest crush, I have the tendency to immediately attempt to stop myself. I've been hurt one too many times, and I don't like the idea of a guy taking up my life and my thoughts anymore. I'm having a good time being on my own...

One of these days you're gonna have to get yourself a man. You don't want to be lonely forever.

Enough with all this talk about having a man. If a nice one happens to show up, I'll consider it.

Mhm.

I'm not worried about this stupid high-school-type crush. It's immature. And I'm on my period. And I barely talked to him.

Excuses...