Our Secret (boyxboy)

Chapter 7

Stiles

Okay so I thought about kissing Derek. That's not so bad right? I mean, people are thinking about kissing people all the time. What so different about me? Maybe that he's a werewolf, you're scared of him and oh I don't know, he's a guy? The fact that he's a guy doesn't bother me as much as the werewolf part. This is all very confusing. Why Derek of all the other guys at my school? Like Danny, he's nice, caring and human. Everything Derek's not. Well lately he's been better. At least ever since he moved in. He actually talks to me, well he talked to me before, but not like this. He asks me questions about my life and stuff.

But it doesn't explain why I all of a sudden start to think about kissing Derek. And dreaming about him. And me. Doing... Stuff. Dreams are hard to control though but I should be able to control my mind. I'm trying to think about something else but it's like that's the only knowledge I got. Occasionally I think about food but I mean, come one, who doesn't think about food? Maybe I should just call Scott and talk to him. I picked up my phone and called him but it just went straight to voicemail. He's probably with Allison. I tried once more but it went to voicemail again. 

Maybe it was for the best though. I shouldn't tell him anything until I know what all of this means.

I walked down the stairs as quiet as I could to try and get past Derek without him noticing me. It was going great until I tripped over a pile of clothes. Why there were clothes lying around on the ground I have no idea. They must be Derek's. Filthy animal I said quietly to myself. Just as I stood up I walked straight into Derek's rock hard body. I literally broke my nose. Okay I didn't, but it did hurt. I groaned and fell back almost hitting the ground. Derek stepped forward catching me just before I landed on my butt. He pulled me up so I was standing straight.

He still held on to my arms and kept looking at me funny. I tried to look anywhere but his face. 

"Why are you acting weird?" He asked after a few seconds of awkward silence.

"I'm not weird, you are." I said a little too fast. He raised his eyebrows. I laughed nervously. He let go of my arms and took a step back. Although I didn't mind him being that close. 

"Are you going somewhere?" He asked me when I was walking toward the door. I took my jacket and turned around.

"Going for a walk." He looked suspiciously. I rolled my eyes and opened the door.

"I'm coming with you." I turned around but this time he was literally right behind me. I jumped a few feet back because he scared the hell out of me. 

"I don't want you to be out alone at this time when you and me both know what's out there." He said and walked past me and started to walk toward the town. I stood in the doorway a few seconds longer trying to figure out why he suddenly started to care about me being safe or not. But then again I could think about it all I want and I was never gonna come up with a solution. So I started ran up to him and we started to walk. 

We've been walking for at least ten minutes and no one has said a word. This is all too awkward. Whenever I've tried to speak I've looked over at him but gotten intimidated and not dared. This is all very wrong. We should be able to have a conversation with each other. Especially now that we live together. 

But I couldn't come up with anything to say or ask him. I was afraid he was gonna get all mad and turn around and walk home. Because even though this was really awkward just walking here without talking it was somehow nice. A little bit anyway. 

We walked a bit more without talking and somehow we ended up in the woods. It feels like I spend more time in the woods than school these days. After a while I just decided to say something. Anything.

"Okay this is getting ridiculous. There have to be something for us to talk about. How ab-.." He gripped my arm and yanked me behind a tree and held his hand over my mouth.

"Shh!" What is he doing? I'm getting thrown against trees a lot nowadays.

"Derek what the he-.."

"Shut up!" After a few second of complete confusion I heard voices deeper in the woods, and they became clearer and clearer. We stood there for a couple of minutes with him crushing me against the tree with his hand still covering my mouth. I'm not gonna lie and say that it bothered me that he was this close because it didn't. I liked it and it freaked me out a little bit. His face was only a couple of inches away from mine and it seemed that it was getting closer.

He slowly let his hand that was covering my mouth go. His eyes became darker but  it wasn't scary like I used to think it was. It was... Beautiful? Really Stiles? He stopped moving when we were just two inches away. He still looked into my eyes. My breath became harder and harder and my heart started to beat faster and faster. He opened his mouth to say something but closed it immediately. 

He took my hand and put it on his chest. I looked down at it. I could feel that his heart was beating almost as fast as mine. I looked up and into his eyes again. 

Like if someone had just pressed the switch button Derek took a few steps back and turned around and was on his way. I don't understand... Why did he just run away? Stupid Stiles, thinking he might actually feel something. It seemed like it though. Or it seemed like something. I don't know. I'm so confused and... Hurt? Yeah I am hurt that he just ran away.

"Fuck you Derek." I said to myself and started to walk home. After a couple of minutes I heard a noice and the next thing I know something hits me in the head and everything turns black.

Sooo sorry for the not updating for twenty years but I finally did it!

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