Cute as a Button - Harry Styles

Chapter 20 ~ New Beginnings

Lydia's POV:

I had just given Harry a goodbye kiss and had left his house. I stood on the pavement and saw James's tall figure with another much smaller one.

Lizzie.

I feel a pang in my chest. But why? For god's sake why? I have Harry, who is absolutely god damn perfect. His had green eyes and soft curls, so why did I feel like ripping James away from Lizzie?

I couldn't understand my own feelings, I shouldn't even be having any. Deep down I knew why.

I liked knowing James wanted to be with me. I liked that he thought I was special. I just liked it. I know it was selfish and greedy, but it didn't stop the feelings, emotion is never rational. Everyone knows that.

I didn't even want to be with James. But I almost didn't want him to be with Lizzie either, I sighed, knowing I was wrong.

A part of me wanted Lizzie to remain miserable a little while longer. I was still hurt and she didn't even do anything wrong towards me. She hurt Harry, but she knows that was wrong, she whole face showed regret but I was being selfish. Again.

I knew the other emotion that was eating me was one I didn't want to acknowledge. Guilt.

Lizzie had told me, she'd told everyone how she'd been feeling. Second best. Unwanted. And I'd let it go, it didn't excuse her behaviour to Harry but it made it understandable.

I spent the past few days feeling terrible, I was supposed to know her best and in reality I knew nothing at all.

And here I was doing it again, making her second best. She liked James, I think, yet I wanted to keep him to myself when I already had Harry.

Selfish again.

I really hated myself at times, but today I was going to make the right decision. Even if it didn't feel like it.

I took a deep breath and crossed the road and walked steadily to where I saw James and Lizzie standing, she had mascara under her big beautiful eyes, but today they were filled with sadness.

I walked straight up to them, ignoring the fact that I was interrupting they're conversation and pulled Lizzie into my arms.

I hugged her tightly, but she hugged me tighter as I were her life force.

We just stood there hugging, but I could feel all her emotion pouring out of her and I'm sure she could feel mine.

I forgave her, and she knew it, with no words.

We finally broke apart and she had a small smile on her face, this one was genuine.

James just stood there like an idiot, but then again he was boy. How much could he understand from a hug?

I looked at Lizzie and she let out a small giggle that she'd been holding in, at James's confused face.

"Wait," he said slowly, "are you two friends again now?"

Lizzie looked at me, hope clear in her eyes.

"We're working on it." I answered honestly, I would try and fix my friendship with Lizzie.

Friends gave you so much, no one could underestimate the importance of friends. They are the family that you get to choose.

I couldn't lose that. Especially with Lizzie.

I took another deep breath, "James, would you and Lizzie like to double date with Harry and I sometime?"

His mouth opened in shock, not because I'd asked him on a double date but I had given him the opportunity to be with Lizzie if he chose, it squeezed my heart a little but I tried to push the feeling deep down.

I was going to be a better person.

He pretended as if he wasn't surprised, "Yeah, we'd love to, that sounds fun."

Lizzie looked happy, so happy. It made me happy.

We may not be best friends, but we weren't enemies. Our friendship had survived our biggest fight, it just need some time to heal. Time is what I would give it, I missed Lizzie and all the fun we used to have to together.

I gave them a hug and walked away, I felt proud of myself.

James began to walk Lizzie home, leaving me alone.

I don't want to be alone right now, I want someone to be with me and hold me. To tell me I'd done the right thing.

Harry.

I went back towards Harry's house, I felt a pull to Harry that could never be replaced by anyone else.

I knocked on the door and was greeted by a surprised face that quickly became a dimply grin when he saw it was just me.

"Hey, do you mind if I come in, I don't really wanna be on my own."

"Of course baby, what's wrong?" He brow creased with small worry lines.

I quickly explained to him what happened, and he shot me another toothy smile.

"I'm proud of you babe, you and Lizzie are going to be okay."

He wrapped his strong arms around me, providing me with the comfort I'd been craving.

"You're so cute, you know that." I said.

"I am not cute." Harry pouted. I giggled at his insulted expression.

"Yes you are, in fact you're adorable."

"Adorable? Puhlease, I am sexy." He strikes a pose, showing off his rather impressive biceps.

I cocked my head pretending to be checking him out. "Nope, still cute." I said laughing.

"Right that's it. No one calls me cute and gets away with it." He picked me up and threw me over his shoulder.

He dropped me on the sofa and began to tickle me, our laughter mixing together, ringing through the flat.

"H-Harry p-please stop." I begged.

"Say Harry is the sexiest human being and I am lucky to be his girlfriend."

I repeated the annoying phrase and he finally stopped. He was straddling me on the sofa in order to stop me wriggling.

I locked my eyes with deep green ones and I could smell his cologne. He quickly pressed his lips against mine, his tongue grazed my bottom lip asking for entry. As pay back for tickling me, I refused him.

He kissed my harder with more force to get my to open my lips, but I continued to refuse him. I was enjoying teasing him. I was getting smug when he bit on my bottom lip, causing me gasp.

He took the opportunity to slip his tongue in and it fought with mine. I felt him smirk into the kiss, thinking he won. I tugged on his curly locks, causing him to make a low groan from the back of his throat.

Lastly, I rolled my body to the side, making hit the floor hard after rolling off the sofa.

He glared at me playfully.

"Tease."

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