After he talked with Fushimi he tried all things to stop harming himself . He tried deep breathing , crying it out and other things . Even when it was almost impossible , Yata tried to fight off this depression .
Fushimi hung around to watch Yata . After a week he checked Yata's arms again for any fresh cuts . "How are you holding up Misaki?" He asked . "I feel horrible ." Yata replied . He still wasn't doing ok . Yata felt worse by the day and nothing could help it go away .
Yata wanted to run from it all but never had the courage to . So he did nothing but let the depression devour him . It was the worst move he ever made . It got a whole lot worse when Yata started cutting again , this time his cuts got deeper . It got to the point Izumo saw the cuts . Izumo had asked about it and Yata always avoided the question . He had no energy or emotion anymore . Yata changed for the worse , he stopped eating . refusing to eat anything at all . no one knew what to do .
-Time skip-
After 2 weeks went by , Yata was to the point he was breaking so much inside . Yata got super skinny . He'd look at food and get this bad feeling . Izumo couldn't get him to eat , no one could . Anna sat by Yata one day on the sofa at the bar " Why are you sad ?" Izumo froze and looked at Yata . He glanced up at her and smiled the best he could " I'm ok Anna , I'm just a little lost . " he said . "lost about what ?" She asked curiously . Still smiling " I'm lost in a very dark place , but I'll find my way out , just think of it as a battle with myself . " Yata said trying to make the depression sound as weak as he could .
He made it sound as if he was stronger and could get through it . He'd be damned if he told her the he thought he wouldnt make it . He looked over at Izumo who had a shocked facial expression . Yata's smile faded , lying is one thing , but to lie about being ok was a complete different thing .
After a few hours of being over at the bar , Yata went home . He locked his door and took off his sweater . He went to his kitchen and started binge eating . after he ate what he could he went to the bathroom . And did what he usually did . He spent until 4am in the bathroom , in the shower or at the toilet . He got out of the bathroom after brushing his teeth and went to the sofa .
He fell asleep soon after he sat down . The next morning Izumo came by Yata had given him a key since they were together So he could get in . Which he did and soon saw Yata laying on the sofa passed out . He picked him up gently and took him to bed . He had to walk past the kitchen to get to Yata's room so he saw food that he had left out .
After Izumo laid Yata down he went to put the food he left out up . After he did that he left a note saying he was there and he left . Not to long after he left Yata woke up . He got out of bed and walked around looking for his sweater , being ashamed of the cuts he didnt want anyone to see . Even if they already knew that he was cutting . He got dressed and went to the kitchen . Seeing the note Izumo had left .
'Yata I can by and cleaned up for you , come to the bar so we can talk .
-love Izumo
He had a gut feeling he'd be getting a lecture about self harm .
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It took me way to long to figure this chapter out sorry if it sucks
