It hurts.
It hurts too much.
I couldn't understand why he left me.
He was my everything.
He was the love of my life.
He was my sunshine.
Until death decided to come early and take away his life.
I cursed death, i cursed how he took my boyfriend's life, the life of an innocent man.
After i learned about Hyun-woo's death, everything fell apart, my heart shattering into tiny pieces of red shards, my vision became blurry, everything around me is silent accept the beating of my heart.
I emit a loud scream, my heart aching more, i couldn't breath, i couldn't take life anymore, i kneel down and sob loudly, the pain tugging my heartstrings, I blame life for taking Hyun-woo away from me, i hated life itself, it itself was a curse. Tears burn on the corner of my eyes as i thought of how sweet he was, of how strong he was, i loved everything about him.
After death took Hyun-woo away, i thought that i could never be happy without him, i would never recieve comfort from him, i would never get to see him smile that angelic smile of his, and i would never get to see him every morning with his arms around me, life without him is just extremely difficult.
That day, i visited the cemetery with a bouquet of daisies, i walk towards his grave as i kneel down, i still couldn't believe that he isn't in this world anymore, i could hardly believe it, i touch the stone written with his name and place the daises down on his grave, i read the words carefully:
Son Hyun-woo
( 1992 - 2019 )
In the memory of a loving son & brother
My eyes once again brims with tears as i cry silently, my heart filled with pain, i can no longer feel his presence around me and that is too much for me to handle, i am still traumatized of his death, he didn't deserve to die, he was still young and precious, yet fate had enough and forcefully seperated us, i keep on crying silently when suddenly i feel a cold breeze and hear something, i lifted my head up snd quickly wiped my tears as i look around, there wasn't anyone at this time and yet i still feel something surrounding me, that's when i heard his voice, his sweet angelic voice.
"______, my sweet girl, my soulmate, my love, my heart "
I gasped, i couldn't believe what i was seeing, Hyun-woo's soul was there, standing right next to his grave, his sweet smile, his beautiful eyes, his presence is there, i thought that i was hallucinating and so i closed my eyes for a while and opened them and he was still there, another sob came out of my mouth.
" my sweetheart, please don't cry, remember that i'll always be here for you, even if you can't see me anymore, even if you forget about me, i'll always love you and be here for you "
" hyun-woo~ah , i-i-i love you s-so much, i can't let you g-g-go " i hiccuped as i said those words, tears streaming down on my face, Hyun-woo smiles sadly at me as he slowly approaches me, i couldn't touch him and he couldn't but i just want to hug him forever, i just want him to be in my arms forever.
" _______, i love you, my love for you is infinity, we are infinity, but i want you to move on "
" but i-i can't for- "
" yes you can, my princess, you will learn to let me go and find someone who you will love, someone who you will remain by his side, you will marry him and become his wife, i want you to know that i am in a better place but you will always be my home, you are my queen, my heart, my everything "
" just learn to let go my love "
Hyun-woo's soul starts to fade, but he keeps on smiling at me as he said the last words.
" let go, my love "
and then his soul faded, leaving me in this cruel, heartless world.
