Since I was a kid I've noticed something.. Light fades,as does curiosity.. As I grew up I wanted so badly to just feel loved for once.. By people outside of my family,ya know..? When I was a kid I was okay with spiders and I loved to go fishing and just patiently wait for a bite. When I was a kid I would sit outside on the playground and read,taking comfort in the words on page that could allow me to learn about the world.. But a thought has always been in my mind when I meet someone new.. What was their story..? If someone hated me when they didn't have a reason too,if I got caught in the storm between right and wrong,I always thought about other people's stories. I always wanted to be able to learn what they had gone through,what every fiber in their being urged them to do. When I was a kid I wasn't interested in the other children,but I would still listen and watch them. When I was a kid I had no reason to believe in fairies or dragons or happy endings. When I was a kid,I dreamed of being able to work with wolves and being able to see the world; to capture it so I'd never forget it. When I was a kid,I wanted to die to see how everyone would react,to see if the few friends I had at school would show up,or whether they'd just walk away. When I was a kid,I loved pictures. Of myself,of nature,of anything. I loved to look back at the last and smile because I knew I'd be heading to the next big thing. I never cared about how I looked or how I felt. Maybe that's why i lost it. I can cry,but I don't really feel the pain. When I was a kid,I thought pinky promises were the most important thing in the world; that as long as someone cared enough to wrap their pinky around yours,then they would never hurt you again and couldn't break their promise. But growing up makes you realize that it doesn't matter what people promise you,that those friends you have made are leaving you. They won't remember you when their adults like you hoped they would. Because no matter how many empty promises are broken,no matter how many times someone hurts you,it's human nature to forgive. It's easy to just fake a smile and tell everyone you're okay,but you aren't. As you grow,your thought process changes. The wide-eyed kid you once were gets locked up in your mind,and everyday screams to be let out so they can see the life you've made for yourself. So when you're becoming friends with people,don't promise them anything you can't keep. Don't tell them lies. Don't break them. Because you were once a kid too.
