Ladies First (Megurine Luka x Hatsune Miku)

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LUKA POV

The hospital brings back bad memories for me. Ever since I was old enough to talk, I distantly remember the bad omens it brought to our family. It was the place Luki was diagnosed with ADHD, the place I ended up so many times in childhood for being bullied, the place Mom fought for her life. It was the place where I said goodbye to Luki, and the place where Dad was fired from work.

Now here I am, running through the doors of the same building I hated so much as I grew up, trying so badly not to cry. I rush through the doors and into the emergency ward with Miku's dull face resting in my arms, her pigtails feeling lifeless.

I have her face buried in my chest because I can't bear to see her blank canvas face. I yell at the nurses for help, they don't seem to notice my cries. "Please!" I yell desperately. "She's not breathing!" 

The nurses seem to notice this detail and grab Miku out of my arms. "We'll take care of her Miss," says one of the plump nurses with amber hair. "You go talk to the receptionist, you didn't come here with an ambulance."

I walk out of the room, my hands feeling empty. I walk up to the receptionist, leaving the emergency hallway. She asks me questions I don't understand, ones I can't judge. Everything's a blur by the time I walk away, only to be told Miku needed surgery and I would be by myself in a dark waiting area away from her room.

When I sit down, I feel my hands involuntarily moving to my head, shielding my damp eyes. First I lost Luki, and now this? I try and convince myself this is good, all of this was for a purpose. But the words don't seem to come out, they struggle to fight against my monstrous doubt. For the first time since this morning, I cry. Each tear makes a pattern that Miku would laugh at. She would snort and giggle like the immature teenager she was. She would be happy.

I look up and scream. I don't scream my heart out, I scream for pure anger. The rage I was told wasn't normal, but right now there's nothing I can do except cry. I don't know who or where or when I'm screaming, but I need to. I feel as if it's God, just trying to torture me. He probably is laughing on his throne right now, feeling so content he can ruin someone else's miserable life.

I suddenly feel sad, and cry again. It's a cycle, back and forth and back and forth. Miku might not be here right now, she may be in a better world, they've just put it off to tell me so I wouldn't be more fucked up than I already am. I would tell them to say the news to me anyways, but then I realize I can barely deal with the present.

It seems like hours have passed before I get at least some notation that she's alive. A nurse comes up to me, the same one that told me I needed to talk to the receptionist, and says I can come in. I feel both excited and depressed at the same time, happy because I get to see her, sad because she may have lifelong effects just because of this. When the nurse opens the door, I see faint Miku on the bed, she's watching TV. I rush to her side and kiss her on the forehead and sit down next to her. She smiles dimly.

"Luka..." she attempts to speak. I quiet her, she looks to bad to talk. Miku points to the TV she's watching. There's a big capital building and a rainbow pride flag next to it. In bold white text at the bottom of the screen, it reads "Capital debating LGBTQ+ marriages." I look down at Miku, she smiles.

A doctor comes in with messy brown hair. He hands me a sheet of paper with numbers and big words printed on.

"It was a bad case of mucus build-up in the upper respiratory tract. We didn't suspect it to be a cold, because it was so bad. However, we did vacuum it out so you two should be good to go by tomorrow hopefully." The doctor hands me another paper, this one a diagnoses for Miku. 

"We also discovered she has had a family history of pneumonia and bronchitis. That may be why you didn't think anything was wrong."

I look down at Miku, her tired eyes trying to hard to keep open. I kiss her on the forehead again and she doses off peacefully.

~this was really edgy lol. I dunno why I felt the need to make you guys feel stuff, I just thought this book didn't have a lot of emotional shit. Anyways, imma be gone from around Saturday-Thursday, so large updates like these won't happen. And also, I made another gay book. (But you already have a lot of gay!) WELL I NEED MORE. Anddd... I didn't forget about increasing the relationship between these two! It's gonna go a lot faster now that most of the dating fluff has been achieved!~