Hey, my name is Émilie. I'm 16 years old, and I still don't know where I'm going in life or what my purpose is. I guess I'm in the phase called "questions". Well, that's what my mom calls it. I have questions for everything, like for example; Why did i have to start this book with a "Hey"? Why can't we ever start conversations with "Good-bye"? Wouldn't that be more interesting?... I guess not, people think that saying Good-bye is rude and that it only serves to end conversations, But I think that it only depends on how you say it and that it doesn't have to end a conversation. In fact, people think and keep on thinking about how things are suppose to be or about how we should behave, but we are all wrong; There isn't any way of behaving. Behaving, only makes life boring, and living under rules only locks you in. I was told to behave all my life and i still live under rules, rules that I have to follow every day, every hour. Rules by my mother. Only, there is a reason for all of these rules.
My father was murdered when I was 5 years old and my brother, Josh, was 7. Three years later, My mom received a letter saying that they would come for me on my 17th birthday. Ever since that day, my brother and mother have been supervising me and forcing me to live under strict rules. I can't even go and see my Horse alone. The only times that I am alone are when I'm in my room, or in the bathroom. School doesn't count, of course I don't have any eyes supervising me since no family is around and also cause I've never really been Popular. I'm not Lower-Class either, I'm just in the middle. Everyone knows me and almost everyone i know is my friend, I'm just not the most outstanding. I'm never alone though, that's why School doesn't count. If there would be a place that I would want to be alone, it would be at the stable with my horse, Bella. I just feel like I'm free with her and for some people it might sound crazy but i feel like she understands me, she feels me, and together we are one. But there's always someone with me when I'm with her, and that ruins everything.
I just want to live without any rules. Without any fences or obstacles. I want to be free and meet people for once, Not being stopped by anyone... And if I could live like that, for once I would have a purpose in this amazing world.
