reality ruined my life

chapter five.

We ate our dinner and had lots of fun, Harry was a nice guy to hang out with. "I feel like these month's will be the best time of my life, I had such a fun night" I told him. he smiled brightly and his eyes started shining, I haven't seen that since I met him, but it looks beautifull on him. "I'm pretty sure it will, I don't even want to think about what I will do when you're going back at home, even though we just met" Harry said honestly. "we'll see that when the time is there Harry, don't worry about that. thankyou for being the friend I've never had" I blushed when I said that. "don't ever thank me again for that Hanna, you're a special girl" his eyes were locked with mine when he said that. I blushed and just nodded. "I should bring you home, are you okay with that?" Harry asked. "yeah sure, I'm going with you tomorrow right? to the interview at the LateLate show " I asked. "yeah your dad will be in the crowd with some others, and you will stay backstage so you can keep your eye on me" he answered. I nodded and we continued our walk to the car. suddenly Harry started whispering, "I think you should kiss me before we get in the car, there's a journalist over there." I just nodded and the nerves kicked in, I was really doing this. I put on a fake smile and before I walked over to the passenger side I looked him in the eye, Harry winked as a sign that it would be allright and leaned in. I closed my eyes and shiverd when his lips touched mine. I felt it through my whole body when our lips made contact, this feeling was unhuman, how was it possible for me to love someone so much? it was just a kiss, but it felt like so much more. I smiled when he pulled back, I saw something in his eyes, but I couldn't tell what it was. our eyes were locked and before I knew Harry placed another kiss on my lips, a very quick one, but I loved the feeling. I smiled once again and walked over to the other side of the car.

when I closed the door Harry started talking "that went well, I think I can get used to this, you're a good kisser." I laughed by his words and felt my cheeks burning. "yeah right Styles" I joked. he laughed and before I knew he parked the car at the driveway of the small house I was living for the next month's.

"I had a lovely day, see you tomorrow at 8 a.m right?" Harry asked. "I had a lot of fun too, see you tomorrow!" I said. out of nowhere Harry leaned in and before I knew I kissed him back. there was no reason for us to be kissing, well maybe there were some journalists but I didn't saw anyone when I pulled back. I smiled before I opened up the door and looked at him one more time. "bye Harry" I said. He smiled at me and turned around to go back to his car. I was kinda suprised by the fact that he kissed me. but I can't deny that I loved it.

my dad was waiting for me when I came in. "the two of you seem close" he said without making eye contact. "dad, its part of the plan, we decided to do it, and there were journalists so we had to" I started but he interrupted me. "I know this was my plan, but you two seem very close, I don't want you to slut around like that" He sounded very angry. I don't understand him, he came up with this plan. "dad, you were the one who came up with this fucking plan, yes I like harry more as a friend, but he doesn't like me in that way, just would you shut the hell up and accept what we're doing? its for his safety, nothing else!" I yelled back. I can see that he is caught of guard but he came up with no excuse. he just sighed and said "well the choice is up to you, but don't come to me when he turned out to be an heartbreaking, rich, famous asshole." I laughed at him sarcastically and yelled "you don't even know him, give him the time to prove himself, and we're not in a relationship, this is for the buisiness I'm doing here for him, and for you because you practically forced me to come with you, so just shut up and let me do my job!" my dad shook his head and answered "I just want the right thing for you, I don't want you to have your heart broken Hanna" I sighed and said very calmly "I won't dad, now I'm going to bed, goodnight" with that I walked upstairs and lied down in my bed as I changed clothes.

from: H
goodnight love, I can't wait to see you tomorrow. what did you dad say about our 'thing' ?

x H

to:H
goodnight Hazza, my dad saw us outside, lets say he was not amused..
x Hanna

from: H
so hazza it is now hm? you're cute ;) what did he say Hanna, was he angry with you?
x H

to: H
can I call you?
x hanna

a few seconds after I sended that text my phone rang. "hello love, whats up" Harry's voice was raspy but filled with love when I answered the phone. "well, he saw us, and he called you some things I didn't like him to say about you, I think he is just worried." I told him. "hm, what did he say?" harry's voice sounded cold. "he called you an heartbreaking, rich, famous asshole" I sighed. "you should know that I'm not thinking of you in that way, and I defended you, I actually think that I won this discussion, but he wasn't happy about it at all" Harry cleared his throat and started talking "Hanna love, he knows this was a part of the plan right?" I nodded, but ofcourse he couldn't see that by the phone. "yeah he knows that, but he said it looked real, and he is afraid that I'm falling in love with you" I felt my cheeks burning when I said that out loud. "are you?" Harry said. I stumbled over my words "wel I- uh, I don't know? we've just met" it came out more as a question. "its okay to don't know what you feel Hanna, just remember you're doing this for your job, not out of love" the words came out coldly, I felt my heart breaking, because the truth is that I am in love with him, I am deeply in love with him, but I won't let him know, he can't know. "I know Harry, the only reason I'm doing this is for my job, and to keep you safe, trust me, its not out of love" I felt so stupid for saying that, but it hurts to be in love with someone, and pretend to be in love with someone, while the other one doesn't love you back. "its okay Hanna, don't worry about it, you won't fall in love with me" oh but harry, I already did you idiot. his words came out compulsive, like he didn't want me to fall in love with him. I have the feeling that he is afraid to be loved or something, that he can't accept the fac that he is loved. "are you still there Hanna?" I flinced when I heard his voice, I was drowned in my thoughts. "yeah I'm here, sorry I was thinking" "about what?" I heard that his voice softened and the Harry I used to love came back. "stuff, I don't like to talk about it, its hard for me" I said honestly. "its okay, but if you want to talk about it I'll be there" I was kinda confused by his mood change but answered "if I'm ready, you're the first one to know" "goodnight Hanna" Harry said.

I closed my eyes and was still confused by all this, but it was too late to think about it, tomorrow will be an important day, because we followed some people who could be dangerous for harry, and we know someone of them is in the public at the late late show so I have to be prepared for the worst.