reality ruined my life

chapter six.

"Hanna wake up you're going to be late!" my dad yelled from the hallway. "coming!" I sighed when I left my bed. the floor felt cold on my feet and I looked horrible. jezus, it looks like I went into a fight or something. my curls were all over my head and it was a terrible to look at.

I fixed my hair and did my makeup after I changed my pj's into a skinny jeans and t-shirt. 'woman are smarter' it said. I smiled when I saw myself in the mirror, at least I tried to make something of it. I left a relieved sigh and walked downstairs. my dad gave me an apple and we walked over to the car.

"we are meeting the team first, Harry will be there too to talk about the plans. then we're off for the day, but we have to be prepared at 8pm" my dad said. "I think I'm going to London today, just go for a little sight seeing" I replied. "yeah you should do that, maybe send mom a card or something?" my dad answered. when we parked the car and walked over to the building we were supposed to meet the others harry walked over. "morning sunshine" he said. "what a hell of a sunshine, but morning Hazza" I said sarcastically. he laughed and we walked over.

"so Dan,Justin ,her dad and I are in the crowd, Hanna is backstage, she'll wear a earphone so she can hear us and she needs to have a place where she can see us. the man we're following will be sitting in the middle of the audience, so keep your eye on that." Robin said. "oh and Harry, when they are asking about your girlfriend, just say you have one" he added. Harry nodded and we all knew this was going to be our first important day. I took the earphone's and we tested them. luckily everything was fine. "Hanna can I talk to you?" Harry said. I nodded, "yeah sure". "I mean, in private" he said awkwardly. as we walked over to the hallway he surprised me by taking my hips and placing his lips on mine. I kissed back and I felt his tongue touching my bottom lip, carefully I opened my mouth. our lips moved synchronically and Harry left out a small moan. I placed one hand in his hair, and the other one around his neck, while he was still holding my hips. This was the most intense kiss I've ever had. actually this was the first kiss with tongue I've ever had, so I had no idea what to do, but I just followed his movements. when we pulled back there was an awkward silence. I was afraid to look at him and I knew he was staring at me. "uhm. sorry." he whispered with a raspy voice. "yeah, well, this is awkward" I stumled. "kinda, lets pretend that this didn't happend, it shouldn't have happened anyway" there was this cold voice again. I felt my heart breaking in little pieces, it started raising in my chest and all I could do was just nodding. I liked it for sure, and he liked it for sure, but what was wrong with him? "I'll see you tonight" Harry said coldly and he walked away. I stood there and felt a complete numb. "Hanna, are you ready to go?" my dad's voice reached my ears and I woke up from the thoughts I just had. "on my way dad!" I yelled back.

the day was over soon and I had to get myself ready for the night. I didn't want to see harry now, but I had to. we were almost at the show when I got a text.

from: H
I'm sorry about this morning, I know I wasn't that nice to you, forgive me?
x H

to: H
no need to be sorry you idiot. see you soon!
x Hanna

we arrived at the building and we could get in. everyone was getting ready and I put my earphone's in. I was standing on the left side backstage, it was almost time for Harry to go on stage. "are you ready Hanna?" I heard Harry saying. "yeah, goodluck on stage, I hope it will be okay, but if not, you need to follow me, you know the plan. goodluck Hazza!" I said. Harry leaned in and kissed me. he pulled back and whispered "there are journalists all over here." I put on a fake smile and nodded. "Harry on stage in ten seconds!" someone yelled. Harry winked one more time to me and I was getting ready to keep everything allright.

"the man wears a yellow polo-shirt, a black jeans and sun glasses" I heard from my earphone. I watched the audience and spotted the man, who the hell is wearing sun glasses inside? I asked myself. the show was getting along nicely and nothing happend yet. and Harry was preparing for the song he was singing. when He turned around to walk over to the performing stage the man with sun glasses stood up and reached out to his back. I felt a lot of adrenaline and heard someone screaming, "He's got a gun!". I knew I wasn't suppose to shoot the man down with all those people around him, but I also knew that I was good at shooting. I glared over to Harry and I saw the panic in his eyes, He started running over backstage but couldn't make it. a gunshot filled my ears and I didn't even realised that I was the one shooting. the man fell down and I saw Dan and Robin running through the man and getting him arrested. Harry ran over to me and I took his hand. "follow me now!" I commanded. we started running together and after a while we reached the door. I gave him my bulletproof jacket and glared around the streets if it was safe to go. I gave Harry the sign and he ran in front of me to the black van. "drive now!" I yelled to Tom, the driver.

he started driving to my house as fast as he could. I heard Harry crying next to me. "its okay, you're safe now" I tried to comfort him. I placed my arms around him and he lied his head down my shoulder. I was still shaking and felt my heart beating in my chest but I tried to stay calm for Harry. when we arrived at my house Harry's tears still were falling, my shirt was wet from them, but I couldn't care less. "hey hazza, maybe you should go and get some sleep?" I asked carefully. He shook his head and said "I don't want to be alone, I'm afraid". I hugged him tight and whispered " I'll stay with you, you're safe now". I lead him upstairs and he started to undress himself. it was hard for me not to look at his perfect body, but I knew this wasn't the right time, everyone is in shock. Harry lied down in my bed, only wearing his boxers. I gave him my blanket and turned the light off. "please don't go" he said. I could hear the panic in his voice. so I turned around and took my pj's. "I'll be right back, I'm in the bathroom" with that I walked over to the bathroom and changed my jeans and shirt into my pj's.

when I came back in my bedroom I took a chair to sit on but Harry stopped me. "come here" he said. lifting up the blanket and without thinking about it twice I just lied down. there was a space between our bodies, but after a while I felt harry's strong arm around my body and he pulled me closer to him. He lied down his head on my chest and I ran with my hand through his hear. "the boy is supposed to make the girl feel safe, but right now, I only feel safe with you" he said with a cracky voice. "I'll do anything to keep you safe, I just showed you" I said back. "you just proved to me that I can trust you" he whispered. "always Harry, always" I answered. "to be very honest, you're the only one I trust, people have hurt me too much, I didn't even knew I was able to trust someone" when he said that I felt those stupid butterflies in my stomach. luckily it was dark in the room, but all I could do was smile. "I will never hurt you, go try to get some sleep, I'm here and I still be there when you wake up" "promise?" he asked. "promise, goodnight hazz" "goodnight love". and there they were again, those stupid butterflies. after this horrible day I still felt so lucky with him in my arms. its actually a really stupid thing, that love can make us so happy.